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Heading home in nine days. My visa's run out and I can't get it renewed again, so it's go home time. I'm really sad about it. It's hard to believe I've been here for six months, because it hasn't felt like it.

Despite my sadness, it's something I need to do. Mom emailed me the other day and told me that my Aunt has ovarian cancer and it's pretty aggressive. That, coupled with the fact that my Daddy had a heart attack just under three months ago and we have a giant reason why finding a way to get my visa extended isn't a good idea. I need to be there for my family. I haven't seen my Dad in years. I think it's been three now, and the idea that I could have lost him terrifies me. Talking to him on the phone every few months isn't going to cut it anymore, I need to go see him, and I need to support my mom and my Aunt. I could lose her. I hope to God that I won't, but I could.

I also need to go back for me. To take the SAT and get my schooling back on track. Hunt for a good college with a reputable Pre-Pharm program. Take out student loans, something I've been avoiding for far too long. I'll probably start seeing my therapist again, and try to get back on some medication. Some that actually works. Zoloft made me a zombie and Welbutrin, as much as I like to think it did some good, didn't really do much aside from make my heart rate jump through the roof.

Aside from other unimportant crap and unnecessary details, I think I'm done.