The 'buck stops here. (original) (raw)
DEAR WORLD. MY DAD NEARLY DIED THIS WEEK AND YOURS DIDN'T. HOW IS IT I AM STILL BETTER AT GETTING SHIT DONE THAN 90% OF THE PEOPLE I KNOW
/END SELF INDULGENT RANT
SRSLY THOUGH, I TAKE LIKE ONE WEEK OFF FROM BEING EVERYONE'S MUM AND ***THIS*** IS WHAT I COME BACK TO? JUST FUELS MY SUPEREGO-CENTRIC VIEW THAT I AM JUST SOMWHOW BETTER AT BEING ALIVE THAN EVERYONE ELSE.
Yep, turns out starbuck thinks she's the best. Do you disagree? Answers on a postcard please.
(No, seriously. My dad almost died, to the point where we were told to prepare ourselves for him not waking up after his heart stopping for 40 minutes and him being in a coma for 4 days) only the glorious NHS (paid for by our taxes, so if you avoid taxes I HATE YOU) saved not only his life but my sanity for a month. I might be behind on shit, but the important stuff still gets done. What's your excuse, world? Cos you are way behind me, AND YOU ARE RUBBISH.
yes, I'm drunk, celebrating my father's release from hospitsal. And Elon James White is correct; the vast majority of people really are self centred garbage. And that probably includes me (boo hoo my dad nearly dies BUT HE DIDN'T AND I HAVE ENOUGH FOOD TO EAT AND ENOUGH MONEY TO PAY THE RENT UNLIKE A VERY LARGE GROUP OF PEOPLE AND YET I AM STILL BOOHOOING EVEN THOUGH MY DAD IS ALIVE AND HEALING).
Human race, you don't deserve to survive. Signed, a surviving human who is so lucky she is like a lottery winner time a thousand, yet she is still complaining because WHITE PEOPLE PROBLEMS BOOHOOHOO.
(RANTING AND SELFPITY IS HARD WHEN YOU'RE SELF AWARE, OH DEAR MY LIFE IS SO HARD, LIKE THOSE GREEK CHILDREN WHOSE PARENTS CAN'T AFFORD TO FEED, YET I HAVE A FULL BELLY AND ONE FULL OF BOOZE AND THEY ARE LUCKY TO GET ENOUGH TO STAVE OFF THE HUNGER PANGS JESUS CHRIST CAN YOU FIT THIS MUCH SIMULATENOUS SELFPITY AND SELF LOATHING IN ONE POST? TURNS OUT YOU CAN. FUCKING WHITE PEOPLE PROBLEMS.)
Alright, rant over. Deep breath, normal service resumes. Have a cheerful song to balance this all out. If you listen to the songs I post you'll have heard this before, but I know noone actually DOES listen to those songs so a) it'll be new to you if you listed to it WHICH YOU WON'T and b) it's all for my own benefit, like this entire post and quite frankly my entire life.
Have a good Saturday! Saturn is one of those I will be thanking for my father's deliverance. I have a thankyou list as long as my arm, and deities are notoriously hard to please, so ima be kind of busy for the next week. But RP is back on, cos I neglected that shit for way too long. And praying and thanksgiving too; I missed the solstice because I was too caught up in my own shit to celebrate the sun's yearly zenith. Rather, it was MY MUM, my protestant mother, who asked me: 'shouldn't you be dancing naked in the woods or something? It's June the 21st. My protestant mother, who got spooked at me chanting '666! 666!' (It was to do with the original Duke Nukem, not religion, but she's way super christian and she was all spooked. And SHE'S telling ME to get out to Sabbat. In a very large way, I am extremely touched by my mother's acceptance of my ass-backwards confused faith (That's not to say that nodern Paganism is ass-backwards &c, just that my personal version which I cooked up and sits well with me and my philisophical beliefs is ass-backwards &c. And I'm ok with that. I know religion is the individual's way of making their peace with the uncontrollable forces in their world that affect their everyday lives. And I have tailored my own to perfectly fit that personal necessity. Hope They don't mind ^_^ (Ironic stateent is ironic. Any philosophy fans/students/random interlopers, please challenge if you feel the need to. I am totes in the mood for a long drawn-out discussion on shit.