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I want to end it all.
Something keeps holding me back, I don't want it to hold me back anymore.
February 27th, 2012
I guess I will start o f with the basics, I'm 16 and I have been diagnosed with anorexia (bulimic tendencies), extreme depression and anxiety.
i can honestly say due to strict rules, I dont know my exact weight. but estimation:
H: 5'4
CW:(estimate) 115 lbs
GW1: 108 lbs
GW2: 100 lbs
GW3: 96 lbs
GW4: 93 lbs
GW5: 89 lbs
maybe more after depending if i make it without shit going down.
LW: higher 80's
looking to loose as much weight as possible in as little times as possible. lets do thissss!
im here for everyone always<3
stay beautiful,
much love xx
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February 27th, 2012
About Me.
I go by H.
I've been struggling with Anorexia and Bulimia for 6 very long years, I've been hospitalized several times in the past, but I always seemed to catch myself before it was too late and drag myself inch by inch just under a healthy weight again, the old russian roulette. I tried recovery (really tried, not just bullshitting my way through it) last year and came to realize it's just a trick that sets you up to fail.
It's been a year.
I've moved, started a new life, and now I'm finally free to embrace my obsessions, my savior.
I will be thin again, I crave it with every fibre of my being.
The hunger, the emptiness, the weightlessness...
And this is where I will chronicle the journey to my deepest, darkest desires.
The Basics.
Age: 21 years old.
Disordered Since: 14 years old.
Height: 5"5.5 feet.
Current Weight: 146 lbs.
Lowest Weight: 115 lbs.
Highest Weight: 166 lbs.
Goals:
Short term.
136 lbs.
130 lbs.
125 lbs.
Long term.
115 lbs.
105 lbs.