gloom and doom (original) (raw)

to put my life in perspective it seems that i need to have a friend who finds himself in a mess of his own doing involving the overconsumption of illegal substances.

not that he's an addict in the chemical sense because grass isn't addictive persay, but that he could not seem to find himself without the stuff. personally, i adore the smoke and found it to be a gateway, as they say, to other alterations, but i treat it more as a preferable intoxicant to alcohol. the difference was that, whereas my buddy found it as a means to an end, i realize that it could be an end to a means if i were to believe the aptly named "pipe dreams".

anyway, my friend b. has been in jail for the last month. according to what he's told me, he's been in trouble for inciting a riot (and holding). this whole thing started a year ago. he got put in right before the wedding. in the few collect calls i've had with him, he seemed to gain a different outlook on life. yesterday, the judge gave him a choice to finish out 6 more months or go to maryhaven for 2 months. the plan yesterday was to get out, enroll in a program and pack up his attic apartment. this whole situation was bad, but it got worse.

when he got back his place, he found it had been broken into! anything of worth was stolen, the a/c was on and the refrigerator was wide open. the only thing left was his dope and pipe. he really took this as a blow that the only thing left for him to do was sit down and get high amidst the mess. the other thing is that they did not consider him enough of an addict to go to rehab.

it will be nice to meet up with him tonight before he heads back to confinement. looks like he'll be spending christmas with the junkies if he gets in rehab. maybe i should get him a copy of "one flew over the cookoo's nest".