fireworks and hurricanes' Journal (original) (raw)

| | Monday, March 26th, 2007 12:54 pm Monday, February 20th, 2006 12:52 pm lostambition it's time to slow downit's time to close your eyesleave your worries and your troubles all behindit's been a long daybut you've seen it coming on and it's goneyou started off todaywanna make a changetired of living tihs life in the same wayyou wanna move on but someone is keeping you downand that mirror it don't tell liarsyour youth is passing you before your eyesand everyday you search for hopebut you already know you gotta let it, gotta let it gogotta let it gotta let it goif you want someone to love you like there's no tomorrowyou gotta let it gobeen held down since you said 'ok'it's time to grow nowtime to change your waysand losing love is hard to bearbut there's someone who wants to share what you lovebut you gotta let it gotta let it gogotta let it go gotta let it goif you want someone to love you like there's no tomorrowyou gotta let it gotta let it gogotta let it gotta let it goif you want somone to love you like there's no more tomorrowlet it go (comment on this) Saturday, January 14th, 2006 3:02 pm Thursday, December 29th, 2005 10:58 pm Saturday, November 26th, 2005 12:55 pm - 5tr4f not_orange the subject line was produced by my head falling on the keyboard... i'm 20 hours into my 24 workday...and in the words of barney gumble..."dont cry for me for i am already dead" (1 comment | comment on this) Saturday, November 19th, 2005 4:48 pm Wednesday, September 28th, 2005 4:18 am Monday, May 9th, 2005 9:57 am Sunday, February 6th, 2005 2:05 am kite_head it's weird, when you're so busy you forget to feel sad....or happy. you just sort of go with it. but now I'm starting to have time to relax, and it's kinda weird. because I shouldn't be relaxing; I've got more work looming over my head now then I did when I 'worked' a lot.I was properly yelled at for being self-loathing when I've got life too well and don't do anything to help others. yeah. I really should be more appreciative. anyone know any good thereaputic books or anything like that?oh, and the past few days I've just been wanting to lay on my bed and listen to Placebo and Radiohead simply because it seems so cliché and generic-college student to do....and then I remember, it'd be more precise to say generic-1990s-college student, and then I wonder about the passage of time, and before I know it, I've thought so much I forgot what the hell I was writing about. (comment on this) Wednesday, January 19th, 2005 12:46 am - fuck you diary, fuck you djwasabi dear diary,i just want you to know that i've been busy the whole day and also that, i'm feeling rather shitty.that's all.good night.current mood: angry (comment on this) Monday, January 17th, 2005 3:08 pm - Silence. thefunera1party Hello. I just joined. I'll put this as an intro:It used to beThat when I was with youI felt safe.And nowI just want you to leave me to my own devicesLet me choose my own death.Stop making me explain to youWhat I can't understand about myself.I'll liveAnd you'll leave me behindOr I'll dieAnd I'll die alone.current mood: disappointed (comment on this) Monday, January 3rd, 2005 1:27 am - readysetgo starlightfading here it comes:NEW YEAR'S RESOLUTION(S).what are they? if the opportunity for something good comes along, you'll need to be armed with reminders of your past failings.. disguised as a "list of improvements," of course. you know how it goes.i'll go first:1 realize that college isn't ittwo read more often12/4 understand love better4our take better care of otherscinco be honest..VI be willing to advance53V3N play "standard" mode on ddrnow you.current mood: really very tired (3 comments | comment on this) Sunday, January 2nd, 2005 11:49 pm - anniversary of a catastrophe teethoforphans of all the days of the year, i think i hate my birthday the most. they used to be such fun, i ate cake and brought a gaggle of friends to the house and everything was great. but as my birthday draws nearer and nearer, i find myself just staring into the mirror and thinking "congratulations, you're older." it's like getting an award for breathing, except now that i'm older and the things i want cost more than the things i used to want, it's more like just breathing. i'm 21 in ten days. by all accounts 21's supposed to be the big one, right? the last big important birthday, the last one you actually look forward to. but i feel like it's just going to pass by like any other day. what an anticlimax. (2 comments | comment on this) 9:15 pm - Let's hope it's a good one, without any fear... kite_head Happy New Years. Is everyone too sad to update, or did some of you go and get lives? Cause, it's a new year, and the community should survive. Now, if only I had something more substantial to say...current mood: stoned (11 comments | comment on this) Saturday, December 25th, 2004 8:14 pm - introduction? kite_head Happy Holidays? Is there such a thing? It used to be I genuinely liked them. And then, it was mild distate....which gave way to a full on assault of bitterness. But now, the past few years, I have been okay to indifferent on it. And I'm only 18. I was lucky though: myself and my cousin were in charge of the mimosas, or rather, she was, and, well, that's what I drank. Don't get me wrong: I am young, and a fairly inexperienced drinker, but after my first quarter at college it was just enough to get me buzzed and make it okay. But what if I hadn't had the mimosas and the occassional other things? (some ancient peach schnapps and some Slovakian vodka, etc) I don't know. I don't know what to say. I mean, I am happy to-day, which I know I shouldn't be posting in this community, but I don't know if the happiness is genuine or not. Truth is, I've been living in an existentialist crisis for the past while. I suppose that's what prompted me to join. I don't know. But, um, I just wanted to come here and possibly meet some people who I could quietly relate to and possibly interact with in this increasingly sterile society. Wow, now if this intro post isn't pretentious or reek of things I didn't want it reeking of, I don't know what it is. But, um....yeah. Cheers.current mood: okay (2 comments | comment on this) | | 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