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	[03 Apr 2002\|06:44pm]
a little food for thought:there is no such thing as a healthy diet. in this day and age our world is corrupted by everything diet, telling you that the way you are is wrong. don't buy into it. if you were to take out all the people in the USA who weren't on diets, 27 states would still be filled. diets have a 90% failure rate, and they're a 2 billion dollar industry. 2 billion! do you have any idea what could be done with that money if americans weren't sitting around counting calories? this is ridiculous. while each day, there is 30,000,000 americans dieting, there's also 30,000,000 starving. grow up people. eat good food, and exercize. don't do it to lose weight, do it because it's good for you. don't let anyone make you apologize for your size.

[03 Apr 2002|06:44pm]

a little food for thought:there is no such thing as a healthy diet. in this day and age our world is corrupted by everything diet, telling you that the way you are is wrong. don't buy into it. if you were to take out all the people in the USA who weren't on diets, 27 states would still be filled. diets have a 90% failure rate, and they're a 2 billion dollar industry. 2 billion! do you have any idea what could be done with that money if americans weren't sitting around counting calories? this is ridiculous. while each day, there is 30,000,000 americans dieting, there's also 30,000,000 starving. grow up people. eat good food, and exercize. don't do it to lose weight, do it because it's good for you. don't let anyone make you apologize for your size.

	[24 Dec 2001\|03:30pm]
All right!This is no longer an Ana community, it's a community for healthy weight loss/weight loss pros & cons, etc.Yeah, no one uses this community anyway, so who cares.

woo!	[14 Dec 2001\|01:05pm]
Hello!

	[11 Dec 2001\|09:17pm]
Hey ya'll, just checking in. (To the nobodies who even check this community anymore)....Yeah, I'm not gonna delete this community after all because I might want to use the "new journal" code to make another journal later .. I gotta keep this journal up to make the code last.>>Anyway, I understand anorexia how it is an extremely consuming disease.But really, there is a cure. Eat something!Good luck.

[11 Dec 2001|09:17pm]

Hey ya'll, just checking in. (To the nobodies who even check this community anymore)....Yeah, I'm not gonna delete this community after all because I might want to use the "new journal" code to make another journal later .. I gotta keep this journal up to make the code last.>>Anyway, I understand anorexia how it is an extremely consuming disease.But really, there is a cure. Eat something!Good luck.

	[07 Dec 2001\|02:36am]
[ mood \| ditzy ] My tummy is growling... I am listning to the right music though, this song constantly says "i feel tough inside" and I do, with every growl of my tummy i feel tough inside... to all that use morpheus or a per to peer program i suggest this song.. cuz i do feel tough inside !.. I feel tough inside.. i can do this!

	[02 Dec 2001\|01:26am]
[ mood \| dumb ] SighHere I am to "spew some glittery bullshit."Well, being just now influenced by the wonderful Tierney's opinion, I came to a lamely quick conclusion that this community is pointless. Holy crap, I'm conforming to her opinion. But honestly, she's right, and I realized that a little whole ago.I'll be deleting it soon .. don't know when .. hopefully after you (like the 3 members of this place) read this. Anorexia does suck, you guys, really. The past few weeks I've been eating -- I mean really eating -- to the point where I feel as if I'm going to burst. And I've gained weight -- I weigh the same as I did before I got anorexic -- and I've aquired a little tummy, even. And I can change clothes in front of people and show my belly and I don't even care. Try it; it feels good. I can understand if you don't want to be morbidly obese .. but curves are okay, and being less than even 160 is great, too. Start eating.

[02 Dec 2001|01:26am]

[ mood | dumb ] *Sigh*Here I am to "spew some glittery bullshit."Well, being just now influenced by the wonderful Tierney's opinion, I came to a lamely quick conclusion that this community is pointless. Holy crap, I'm conforming to her opinion. But honestly, she's right, and I realized that a little whole ago.I'll be deleting it soon .. don't know when .. hopefully after you (like the 3 members of this place) read this. Anorexia does suck, you guys, really. The past few weeks I've been eating -- I mean really eating -- to the point where I feel as if I'm going to burst. And I've gained weight -- I weigh the same as I did before I got anorexic -- and I've aquired a little tummy, even. And I can change clothes in front of people and show my belly and I don't even care. Try it; it feels good. I can understand if you don't want to be morbidly obese .. but curves are okay, and being less than even 160 is great, too. Start eating.

	[12 Nov 2001\|07:54pm]
[ mood \| uncomfortable ] told mom and dad i went "jogging". i just wanted to get out of my house to smoke a cigarette. i went to the mormon church right by my house. it was scary, 'cause these guys were yelling out the window at me and kept following me. i was way freaked out so i left and went home. while i was at the church i stood at the top of the stairs. i was looking down watching all the cars zoom by. i wanted to jump just for the hell of it. i know it wouldn't have killed me, i just wanted to jump off anyway. but i didn't 'cause i was afraid i would have got hurt real bad and i wouldn't know what to say to my family and friends. what a fucking chicken shit i am, huh? raver called me and he's not coming home tonight. he's coming home tomorrow morning. i should have went jogging tonight for the exercise but i just felt like sitting in the cold and just thinking. when i came home the first thing my dad said to me was, "good cake danielle." i said, "thank you," and walked to my room. i wish i could have some of that delicious cake that i made but i can't. school is tomorrow. yuck! i feel really disgusting right now. i'm sick of feeling this way all the time. "choke me in the shallow water, before i get too deep."

[12 Nov 2001|07:54pm]

[ **mood** |

uncomfortable ] told mom and dad i went "jogging". i just wanted to get out of my house to smoke a cigarette. i went to the mormon church right by my house. it was scary, 'cause these guys were yelling out the window at me and kept following me. i was way freaked out so i left and went home. while i was at the church i stood at the top of the stairs. i was looking down watching all the cars zoom by. i wanted to jump just for the hell of it. i know it wouldn't have killed me, i just wanted to jump off anyway. but i didn't 'cause i was afraid i would have got hurt real bad and i wouldn't know what to say to my family and friends. what a fucking chicken shit i am, huh? raver called me and he's not coming home tonight. he's coming home tomorrow morning. i should have went jogging tonight for the exercise but i just felt like sitting in the cold and just thinking. when i came home the first thing my dad said to me was, "good cake danielle." i said, "thank you," and walked to my room. i wish i could have some of that delicious cake that i made but i can't. school is tomorrow. yuck! i feel really disgusting right now. i'm sick of feeling this way all the time. "choke me in the shallow water, before i get too deep."

	[07 Nov 2001\|09:36pm]
[ mood \| confused ] I've been eating like mad .. I'm back to my original weight right now.I look at the skinny preppy girls at my school ....and I want to be anything BUT them. I hate the way they're all thin and alike.BUT THEN: I look at models and movies and such, and it makes skinny look delicious. There are so many opposing triggers that I'm going both ways.I starve myself.I binge.What do you call this?Is this anorexia?Does anorexia include binging?What about my starvation periods?They last for days.All I think about is food/weight.It's not exactly driving me insane (yet) but it's consuming me.

[07 Nov 2001|09:36pm]

[ **mood** |

confused ] I've been eating like mad .. I'm back to my original weight right now.I look at the skinny preppy girls at my school ....and I want to be anything BUT them. I hate the way they're all thin and alike.BUT THEN: I look at models and movies and such, and it makes skinny look delicious. There are so many opposing triggers that I'm going both ways.I starve myself.I binge.What do you call this?Is this anorexia?Does anorexia include binging?What about my starvation periods?They last for days.All I think about is food/weight.It's not exactly driving me insane (yet) but it's consuming me.

	[04 Nov 2001\|09:22pm]
[ mood \| optimistic ] Okay, here's the dealio: I'm gonna try to go on a fruit/veggie diet. Mmm, yes. That way I can still eat but I'll eat totally healthily! What a brilliant plan this is. Fruits and veggies rawk! How many calories are in fruits/veggies anyway? Mmmm!

This is hell...	[04 Nov 2001\|08:20pm]
[ mood \| accomplished ] Wow first post in this community. I am here because weight gain sucks ass and losing weight is the only thing on my mind. I am going to go back on my diet starting tomorrow. I think I am going to try and get back down to 300 calories a day because when I did that last time I lost 20 pounds...being 90 pounds would rock!

	[04 Nov 2001\|08:14pm]
I'm uPdating for in this community for the first time.If anyone has any questions, I'm the maintainer so I'll be the one you want to contact.So here I go, back on a diet. It's not as bad as you think; right now I only want to take a risk.

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