I'm ready (original) (raw)

April 29th, 2020

September 19th, 2009

I keep wanting to give an update on the last...however many months/years of my life, but I can't organize my thoughts enough. I don't feel any one way about anything that's happened. I don't know!

I spend a good chunk of the little downtime I have thinking about all the stupid shit I've done over the last three years and where/who I would be otherwise. I mean, it's got it's negatives and it's positives to all of it, that's for sure, but I definitely feel far from being anything close to happy.

August 14th, 2008

I was eating at Taco Bell the other day and had Baby Tingle in one of those front carrier things, and I dropped a big glob of bean and Fiesta on the top of his head.
I checked quick to make sure no one was looking and licked it off.

September 28th, 2006

It's official, I'm a vegetarian.

Haha gross.

August 14th, 2006

good pic of me and kyle killa.
and my new phone.
mmmm

June 19th, 2006

ok i know this is a bad entry after not updating in a long time (and i will update better with news in the nearish future, i'm busy!) but...

i just had to take out my piercings. permanently. i'm sad. AND I FEEL LIKE A LESSER PERSON.

it's like a super fancy car without a hood ornament.

or a nice front yard with a bunch of nice flowers and those cheesy gnomes and such that you worked so hard on...and someone ripped them all out and stole those little men.

or some other nice thing that gets devastated. you know.

woe is me.

but it's all for a job. so i can buy that nice little cavalier convertible from my uncle.

i'm a baker at the pick 'n save across from horlick in racine. i have to make donuts and muffins and such for all you early risers. 3am-11. haha good hours...

you will be missed.

January 30th, 2006

HELLO I AM SICK

They gave me a blood test. At least I didn't hyperventilate this time...? I cried about it because I'm a big baby. They even gave me a Taz band-aid. I hate Taz.

Seriously, I better not have Mono. It lasts for a month or so. I can't do college AND Mono. I maybe cried about that too.

I hope this is one of those times where I get real worried and worked up for nothing.

I don't want no kissing disease.

December 17th, 2005

I think it’s funny how all of my worries about college came true.

"Don't let me fail. You totally know I can't do it alone."
I told you ahead of time and everything and you let me anyway!

"Yeah. Sorry, Michele, but there’s just not enough room for the both of us. But she might be really awesome. But she might suck real real bad. She’s pretty much my complete opposite, but I’ll try not to worry"
No! I had reason to worry! She is awkward and messy and stinky and just generally a disgusting human being.

"Things are changing (in more ways than one) and I guarantee a lot of you won’t like it, but that’s just the way it’s going to be."
Truuuue dat.

"I guess I’m kind of scared I’ll make a lot of bad decisions; not really in anything specific, just with everything. We all know how bad I am at the school thing when I’m not trying, which happens to be most of the time. And I seem to be pretty bad at relationships and I’m scared that I’ll immediately attach myself to someone without really getting to know them and having some bad ending and just...getting unnecessarily distracted. And I’m scared I’ll get into my usual rut of things."
Way too true. This is some bullshit.

Getting man-handled like that again was pretty much one of the worst feelings ever.
Me saying "No" and him saying "She wants it!" and trying to find someone to help me get him off me.
I can't describe it. No. I can. I don't want to. It hurts. I'm pretty sure I put myself into those kinds of situations though.

And I’ve become a typical college retard. And I don’t think I even care. But I’m fucking things up bad. I don’t know.

I feel really dissatisfied with myself.

My weight shifts.
Back, heel, front, tippy-toes.

This is Adam! We dated for like a week. And broke up a week or so ago. We weren't ready for eachother.

We're a couple of Sasstresses

And we suck at striking a pose. Sorry.

I AM AN ESKIMO!

Suck my pants.

November 22nd, 2005

That's right, Blue Men, me and Sheep are coming for you yet again!

(This pic is some old school shit. But by "old school" I only mean last March.)

The animals keep eating our Christmas tree.
There's little pukey spots full of needles everywhere.

Yeah, hi. There's been a lot of bullshit going on. With everything. But I THINK I'm handling it well?

I totally almost dropped out of college last week. No one would let me. I was a little pissed.

There's been some guy issues. And then a lot of drama stemming off of that. You know, whatever.

Things will smoothe out soon enough, I'm not worried.

Just because.