hey just wantd ur opinion on this song... be honest if it sux say so pleeze...you just betrayed mewhn i was faithful to youi thought this would never endnot after what we've been throughwhat did i do that pushed you awayand made you leave me?chorus:i'm falling away nowfurther now into my mindremembering youthe pain, the betrayalyour lies are killing me.now i'm standing here about to leavethis will be m last night herei look at the water and see your faceonce so comfortingbut now i can only see the lies and painthis is the one place i could go to feel safe.chorusi watch as my tears fall into the darknessmy heart is damaged beyond repairi have no life without you herebu the life i had with you was fakeso tonight i will write my final goodbyeso everyone will know why i have diedchorusyou are killing me...you just killed me...
[ **mood** | crushed ] SITTING WATCHING THE WORLD PASS BYWATCHING EVERYONE CHANGE BUT STILL I REMAIN THE SAMEI'M STILL UNLOVED, REJECTED AND ALONEI'M STILL HURTING AND UPSET DON'T KNOW WHAT IT FEELS LIKE TO BE LOVED, MISSED OR NEEDEDBUT I AM STILL HERENO MATTER HOW MUCH I HATE IT I WONT LEAVE
[ **mood** | depressed ] FEELING NOTHING INSIDE EXCEPT PAINTOO ONLY LAUGH BUT NOT FEEL THE HAPPINESS THAT GOES WITH ITTO FEEL BLAMED FOR EVERYTHINGAND YELLED AT FOR NOTHINGTO HEAR THE SAME WORDS OVER AND OVER BUT THEY MEAN NOTHING TO YOUTO ALWAYS TELL EVERYONE YOU’RE OK WHEN YOU KNOW YOU’RE NOTTOO SCARED TO TELL THE TRUTH BECAUSE IT HURTS TO ADMIT,HURTS TO ADMIT YOU’RE NOT OK AND YOU CAN’T COPE WITH LIFEHOW YOU MAKE UP EXCUSES SO YOU CAN SIT AND CRY, ALONETO PUSH EVERYONE AWAY, SO YOU DON’T GET HURT YOURSELFTO KNOW WHAT YOU’RE DOING, TO NOT WANT TO DO ITBUT CAN’T MAKE YOURSELF STOP.TO HATE EVERYTHING YOU’VE BECOMEBUT CAN’T CHANGE WHAT IS NEEDED TO YOURSELFTOO SCARED TO ASK FOR HELP…
[ **mood** | rejected ] LEFT ALONE AND UNWANTEDABANDONED AND UPSETFOREVER BEING HURT AND DISAPOINTEDALONE IN A WORLD OF REGRETSBUT STILL SHE LOVES HIM AND DOESN'T KNOW WHY,HE SAYS HE LOVES HER AND NEEDS HERBUT NEVER SEEMS TO CARE,DOESN'T MAKE THE EFFORTBUT SHE STILL FOREVER REMAINS BY HIS SIDENO MATTER WHAT HE DOESHE AND SHE BOTH KNOW SHE'LL NEVER LEAVE HIM...
[ **mood** | sad ] something i wrote:EMPTY SPACES HIDE WITHIN HER CONFUSION DEEP INSIDETHOUGHTS OF HIM ARE ENDLESSLY HURTING HERAS SHE WONDERS IF HE CARES,NOW SHE'LL NEVER KNOWSHE RUNS THE BLADE ACROSS HER SKINTHE PAIN DISAPEARS AS SHE CLOSES HER EYESSHE THINKS OF HIM AND WHISPERS GOODBYE,DIEING NOT KNOWING IF SHE IS LOVED OR USEDBUT ONE THING SHE KNOWS IS SHE'S ALL ALONEHE HAS FORGOTTEN SHE EXISTS.
[ **mood** | calm ] hey im new 2 dis community obviously um well about me hmmm i have depressinon and cut my wrists my dad killed himself when i was 7 and i hate my life. well thats about it really g that was easy and quick.
They say love is the answer ...well what was the question?Do we really believe that love is goning to save us if we are dieng? If so I am dieng inside...why am i not being saved.Do we really believe if we kill someone love will save us? If so I am killing those around me with my unhappiness...why hasn't love saved me?Do we really believe that if we try to kill ourselves that love will save us?Well it has saved me once...but that love left and with him left my desire to live...where is love now? -Jay
Hey I just joined this community and I am new to LJ.They call me jay but I was named Jasmine.I am 15 and I do absolutely nothing...Today I cried because I couldn't help but think of you.I coundn't help but hat think of what happened and what you did to me.I cried for days and locked myself in the bathroom,watching the very substance that gives me life and runs through my veins run down the bathtub drain. Hearing the water run faintly as I sink into the cold water/I opened my eyes,watching that substance thin and float around me.Closing my eye I waited for it to end...then you saved me
[ **mood** | crushed ] Hey pplz! this is mah first posting here, so i am a bit nervous...i am not very good at writing (i am 12, so i hope i get better as i grow older and go through more) so i apriciate all the feedback i can get. i hope u enjoy mah work, plz comment, thankz!Inspiration- The boy in my summer school classNothingI am all aloneBut I feel someone breathing down my neckI feel my hair stand on edgeI feel something against my armI feel someone’s presenceI turn aroundBut it’s nothingAs alwaysIt’s nothing(chorus)My eyes are red from cryingMy mind is hurt from thinking of youMy heart is bruised from being batted aroundMy wrists hurt from being cutAnd just when I think something is here to relinquish the painI turn around and see nothingI am standing in front of youBut you push me asideDo you remember my name?Do you remember my face?Do you remember me?You walk through meBecause I am nothingAs alwaysI am nothing(chorus)My eyes are red from cryingMy mind is hurt from thinking of youMy heart is bruised from being batted aroundMy wrists hurt from being cutAnd just when I think something is here to relinquish the painI turn around and see nothingI am better then herBut she is who you would rather seeNot meNot meDoes she make you smile bigger?Can she even see through your façade?Like I canAnd I can do nothingAs alwaysI can do nothing
Hey ya'll- just thought I'd give you an invite to my other journal to read a large collection of poetry i've just posted. I hope you visit, and enjoy! Feel free to leave comments :)(all the poetry has been written by me)www.livejournal.com/\~erinhurdThanks :)
"THIS WILL HURT ME LESS AND LESS UNTIL I FEEL NOTHING."I wont feel the weight of the world, the massive world...the world im convinced will crush me.I wont feel peices of my broken heart, flowing through my veins...the veins im convinced haven't bleed enough.THIS WILL HURT ME LESS AND LESS UNTIL I FEEL NOTHINGand, I won't even know when I am in pain, I won't even knowand not knowing is better, much better than knowing and doing nothing...I won't feel the need to cry anymore, no more tears will come come out of these dark eyes. These damn dark eyes, that know they DESERVE some light.This body, won't be brusied anymore...no matter if they are back in style. Bruises, are not my couture.THIS WILL HURT ME LESS AND LESS UNTIL I FEEL NOTHINGThis person, this being, will be be able to face the world, and never shiver in fear, never ask the stupid question, "WILL THIS HURT?", of fucking course it hurts...well, except to me, I feel NOTHING.What a glorious day, when I can say "I FEEL NOTHING" and actually mean it. I FEEL EVERYTHING RIGHT NOW. every shread of hate and idsbelife, I FEEL IT ALL. Every single bit of it. And its killing me, roting my insides. For that should I be thankful? WHY YES! because...THIS WILL HURT ME LESS AND LESS UNTIL I FEEL NOTHINGTHIS HAS TO HURT ME LESS AND LESS UNTIL I FEEL NOTHING...unless it KILLS me first.
im new. found this community from another one i joined. yay. something my girlfriend wrote...youll never understand the pain you put me thoughall the years of physical and metal abuseill take my life to get rid of the dismaytake my life to get rid of all the decayyou knocked me down, never to pick me back upyou beat me down, never admitted that you fucked upill take my life to rid me of all the paintake my life so that ill finally be sanetake my life cause you never took the blameyou never had a kind word to saysat around with a heart thats cold and greyill take my life to get rid of the decayill take my life so ill finally be saneill take my life cause you never took the blame also posted in (xxnazi_haloxx)
[ **mood** | blah ] i just joined, i hope thats allright. :) here's a poem i wrote a while ago, but it's my favorite piece. WEEPI walk in front of Sorrow. She follows as I goOn our way we pass Destiny, he's counting all his woesFreedom fights with Tyranny, as Peace is kissed by WarWonder dances with Knowledge, waltzing past Deceptions doorInnocence met Pain when Fate bumped into HarmHate watches with Silence, as Love falls to Broken's armsI blankly stare at Fear as he tries to draw me inHe waits with Patience for me to start turning to him againDreaming controls Reality, or tries to half the timeShe buys chains to lock him down, they only cost a dimeI gaze at Life with Contempt, when Depression entices meDeath grew wings so she could loom over all of us and weep.
addictedi want you to be addicted.to everything that I am.So that when you really want me,I can leave.and treat you to theshit; the shit,you treat me toeveryday of mylife.december 25th 2003unsaid prayeri'll close my eyes and say agian the unsaid prayer;"dear whoever is in heavan:I asked for happiness, and instead I got sold a false sense of empty joy. I asked for guidance, so I wouldn't be so lost all the time, and insted I got sent back a way I had already come. I promised, that if someone could have some faith in me, that I would have some in you. But i am again left, religionless. I said that I would try harder, and while I tried, you strengthened my enemy, and I was left defeated again. I told you that I had sinned, and I hoped for fogivness, but I have no sign that you even heard me. Do you even listen? dear whoever you are: I don't know what else to say. I'd ask something from you again, but i'd just be left with an open empty void, that I had exposed and wretched from its hidden place, by bringing it up. forever and ever Amen"december 25th 2003
I just want to SCREAMand rip off my own head.I don't think I can take it,I just wish that I were dead.I wish that I could tell you,"starry silence sounds so cute"but i fucking hate that sound,so my comments probably moot.If the all the worlds a stagewheres the audience sit?The world is just a fucking cage,and we are all trapped in it.If I slit my wrists,and if I die?,would you clench your fists?would you even cry?Tommorow is a world away,yesterday is gone,if i live one more day,it'll be a mirical from god.The pressure pushing against my heart,is to horrible to bare,i'll grab my heart, rip it apart,and drench myself in blood.can i be anymore fucked up?I guess this is what I give.i don't think it is possible,cuz this is what you get.-Paigewow. I feel totally better. I really purged my heart out into that.
hey folks...sorry this is a "bad post" not really a post you should post here, but I want you guys to know about my new community! It has a dark poetic theme, but doesn't have boundries as to what kind of posts you can put...examples!!!---post pix- of anything post poems/stories/letters ect. post song lyrics and what not rant and rave about your day or nothing, ask questions, find different people who share your scene. I would love it if yall would just check it out, I want this community to grow and be prosperous!!The community name is xxnazi_haloxx if you know who Jack off Jill is, then you'll get the name! XD have a good day, and please check out the community!!-Paige uoy_ykcul
[ **mood** | accomplished ] The pain of a thousand knivesStabbed into my heartPouring my blood all over the floorIt happened again tonightAs I close my eyesI can see your faceAs I gulp hardI can feel the heartacheI've never felt this beforeNever have I given upThe deprivation of hopeI don't have the urge to go onEvery FeelingEvery TouchEvery KissEvery Smile in our eyesHas been a lieAs I plummet to the floorI can only think of youAs my tears pour from my eyesI can only think I'm throughMy heart's beating fastI'm shaking uncontrollablyThis pain is just to realThis empty feeling in the pit of my stomachCan never be replacedThe emptiness in my heartI'll never forgetThe day you leftThis will be the hardest thing i'll ever have to doDon't think this was easyYou were absolutely everythingNever think once you weren'tYou had my heartI would have given you my lifeMyselfTo youBut I understand nowThis is what I have to doI'm DoneThese are my final tearsMy final wordsMy final breathFarewell to youOur futureOur LoveYou've forgotten ItSo have I.
I keep on looking for the time,to tell you I love youBut i don't think time is on my side.And everytime I think you love me, you just ignore me,and i realize, its all just a pack of lies.how easily my heart breaks...becuase I wear it on my sleeve.But i can not help it,its the just the way i amI need something to believe.
crushed ] SITTING WATCHING THE WORLD PASS BYWATCHING EVERYONE CHANGE BUT STILL I REMAIN THE SAMEI'M STILL UNLOVED, REJECTED AND ALONEI'M STILL HURTING AND UPSET DON'T KNOW WHAT IT FEELS LIKE TO BE LOVED, MISSED OR NEEDEDBUT I AM STILL HERENO MATTER HOW MUCH I HATE IT I WONT LEAVE
depressed ] FEELING NOTHING INSIDE EXCEPT PAINTOO ONLY LAUGH BUT NOT FEEL THE HAPPINESS THAT GOES WITH ITTO FEEL BLAMED FOR EVERYTHINGAND YELLED AT FOR NOTHINGTO HEAR THE SAME WORDS OVER AND OVER BUT THEY MEAN NOTHING TO YOUTO ALWAYS TELL EVERYONE YOU’RE OK WHEN YOU KNOW YOU’RE NOTTOO SCARED TO TELL THE TRUTH BECAUSE IT HURTS TO ADMIT,HURTS TO ADMIT YOU’RE NOT OK AND YOU CAN’T COPE WITH LIFEHOW YOU MAKE UP EXCUSES SO YOU CAN SIT AND CRY, ALONETO PUSH EVERYONE AWAY, SO YOU DON’T GET HURT YOURSELFTO KNOW WHAT YOU’RE DOING, TO NOT WANT TO DO ITBUT CAN’T MAKE YOURSELF STOP.TO HATE EVERYTHING YOU’VE BECOMEBUT CAN’T CHANGE WHAT IS NEEDED TO YOURSELFTOO SCARED TO ASK FOR HELP…
rejected ] LEFT ALONE AND UNWANTEDABANDONED AND UPSETFOREVER BEING HURT AND DISAPOINTEDALONE IN A WORLD OF REGRETSBUT STILL SHE LOVES HIM AND DOESN'T KNOW WHY,HE SAYS HE LOVES HER AND NEEDS HERBUT NEVER SEEMS TO CARE,DOESN'T MAKE THE EFFORTBUT SHE STILL FOREVER REMAINS BY HIS SIDENO MATTER WHAT HE DOESHE AND SHE BOTH KNOW SHE'LL NEVER LEAVE HIM...
calm ] hey im new 2 dis community obviously um well about me hmmm i have depressinon and cut my wrists my dad killed himself when i was 7 and i hate my life. well thats about it really g that was easy and quick.
blah ] i just joined, i hope thats allright. :) here's a poem i wrote a while ago, but it's my favorite piece. WEEPI walk in front of Sorrow. She follows as I goOn our way we pass Destiny, he's counting all his woesFreedom fights with Tyranny, as Peace is kissed by WarWonder dances with Knowledge, waltzing past Deceptions doorInnocence met Pain when Fate bumped into HarmHate watches with Silence, as Love falls to Broken's armsI blankly stare at Fear as he tries to draw me inHe waits with Patience for me to start turning to him againDreaming controls Reality, or tries to half the timeShe buys chains to lock him down, they only cost a dimeI gaze at Life with Contempt, when Depression entices meDeath grew wings so she could loom over all of us and weep.
xxnazi_haloxx if you know who Jack off Jill is, then you'll get the name! XD have a good day, and please check out the community!!-Paige 
uoy_ykcul
accomplished ] The pain of a thousand knivesStabbed into my heartPouring my blood all over the floorIt happened again tonightAs I close my eyesI can see your faceAs I gulp hardI can feel the heartacheI've never felt this beforeNever have I given upThe deprivation of hopeI don't have the urge to go onEvery FeelingEvery TouchEvery KissEvery Smile in our eyesHas been a lieAs I plummet to the floorI can only think of youAs my tears pour from my eyesI can only think I'm throughMy heart's beating fastI'm shaking uncontrollablyThis pain is just to realThis empty feeling in the pit of my stomachCan never be replacedThe emptiness in my heartI'll never forgetThe day you leftThis will be the hardest thing i'll ever have to doDon't think this was easyYou were absolutely everythingNever think once you weren'tYou had my heartI would have given you my lifeMyselfTo youBut I understand nowThis is what I have to doI'm DoneThese are my final tearsMy final wordsMy final breathFarewell to youOur futureOur LoveYou've forgotten ItSo have I.