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Hey there. I just joined the community, so I guess I'll put up somewhat of an introduction.

I'm 23, still in college, but engaged. Our wedding won't take place until after I graduate next fall. We've already been together for three years (okay, as of this coming Monday, but close enough) and I live with him on the weekends, because he's an hour away from my school and the commute would be ridiculous if I lived with him, particularly when my parents live within half that distance of the school. I also live with him during any breaks, including the month I usually get at the end of each semester (I don't get a break during all of summer because in order to get caught up after some severe academic apathy I -need- to take classes during the summer). So, in short, we've had plenty of 'us' time.

We've already decided to try for a baby shortly after we get married. He's 31 and he's -ready-. He has a 5-year-old god-daughter he's been interacting with since she was only a few months old (she's adopted, so he didn't get the opportunity until she was that old) and really, he's just awesome with kids in general and very settled and stable in his life.

I've been emotionally ready since about sixteen (I've always been mature for my age) intellectually, I've been ready since about eighteen. Now I'm financially ready (my fiance can easily provide for a family as soon as we get married-- he's a computer geek and makes quite a bit). We're just waiting to be situationally ready. It's like, I'm in the home stretch! Only like two more years before I'll hopefully have a baby!

It's harder, though, because my sister's now pregnant. I can't distract myself from the baby desire so much anymore when I go shopping and looking at baby stuff with her and all. It's not her fault-- she never wanted to have kids and this was a complete accident, but it doesn't help that she still lives with our parents as well and it's like a constant reminder that she's getting everything I want before I do (she's also getting married in January, more than a year before I do).

*sigh* sometimes it's hard to do the right thing, but I'm sure my patience will pay off in the end!