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Tovia's Ashes [Aug. 7th, 2006|01:53 pm]WeepingTree
Today I was looking for an ocarina flute that is supposed to arrive....I did not find it. I began to look around the house, just to make sure that it hadn't arrived, as it is due for arrival, or even overdue. Instead, I found the ashes from a cat that died last year from FIP (Basically kitty AIDS) at the age of four.....Tovia. I guess we never found Tovia's ashes, until now, at least. Now, I am Jewish, and normally would have not wanted to creamate Tovia, but it was agreed upon, because Tovia might be eaten by animals otherwise (even tho this was a natural occurence, mostly my parents didn't want this). Anyway, teary-eyed, I took the ashes upstairs, and put them in a special place. My best wishes to Tovia. I hope you are feeling better!Love,-WeepingTree
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Oak [Aug. 6th, 2006|03:19 pm]WeepingTree
Dear Journal,So I haven't written in a while, I guess. How have you been? I have been searching more. I guess I have a connection to the alien species the greys, and I have found I have mental therianthropy. At the moment, I believe myself to be a siberian lynx mentally. However, my true self, IS a tree. That is, my spirit truly takes the form of a tree. I believe I may be a chestnut oak. I do not any longer believe that I may be a walk-in. These were most likely teenage changes. Too much has remained the same.I am currently looking for others who are so called, "greenkin", or otherkin who are plants of some sort. I would like to speak with them on a messanger. Please contact me via messanger, if you are a greenkin, or think you may be. It gets lonely being one of the only one's, if ya know what I mean.Love, and byes,-WeepingTree
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Birthday/shovel teeth [Jul. 2nd, 2006|12:19 pm]WeepingTree
Dear Journal,My birthday was on Thursday. I didn't sleep the night before very well. Only got about three-four hours. However, most of the day was good. I got some American Indian jewelrey, the drum I have been talking about, and a Cher dvd. I spent the day at my cousin's, then went out for sushi with the family. We had ice cream cake (two great flavors mixed in, cotton candy, and marshmallow with rainbow sprinkles in the middle!). So that is the summary of my birthday. Now onto the next piece of info.I went to my dentist the other day, and asked him if I had scoop or shovel teeth, as I had read that non-caucasions had shovel teeth. He told me that I had a mix of scoop and shovel teeth, and told me it was likely that I am not completely caucasion, but that does not necessarily mean American Indian, and probably only have a TINY bit of blood in me. Now I am wondering what that race is that is in me. I have since been looking things up on family tree searches, however, have not found much past my dad's parents. Yet, my dad said that my grandma on his side has kept track of the family. It is amazing that my family on her side was decended from hugonots(sp?) in South Africa (Although I know the South Africa part; that is where my dad is from. It is the hugonots that surprised me). Appearently Duplessis (Cardinal Richelieu) is my ancestor! Now that does not say anything about the mixed race. He was French. Yet, I do find it interesting. As far as I know, my mom's family is completely Jewish. So I guess I am only about 3 quarters Jewish it seems so far. Well, that is about all.Byes!Love,-WeepingTree
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I Believe I am a walk-in [Jun. 19th, 2006|02:04 pm]WeepingTree
Dear Journal,I couldn't sleep very well last night. It must be because I am dealing with the fact that I may be a walk-in spirit of some kind----it would make quite a bit of sense. After a long period of depression, when I was 13, I began becoming more spiritual, not to mention suddenly quite wise. I gained such an interest in UFOs, not to mention I wanted to become a healer. My personality changed a bit, from outgoing and a fighter, to shy, and a healer. Now, some may try to say that the next thing I will mention could not possibly happen, or that it was just a coincidence, but there is no such thing as coincedenes. You see, my eyes changed. They became more intense, and darker. Almost hypnotic in a way. I started to wonder if I wasn't from this planet, but at the same time, I became so close with nature. After that, I have always looked back at my younger self, my memories and said to myself, that girl....she is not me! I have since always identified with stories in which a child dies, but the body stays the same, only takes on a new sprit to save them.Now, I have been wondering this for a long time, but I kept dismissing it as most walk-ins would feel much more different. It would just be more of a drastic change, and what's more, they would probably not remember, nor care for their family. But finally, recently, I looked into it again. Appearently, after talking to many walk-ins, everyone's experience is different, and they all thought that my experience could very well be a walk-in experience. But this brings up more questions:What is my origin?I feel like a nature spirit, some thing would prove me angel, and I feel alien, as well as some things would prove me that as well. I only feel like ONE spirit. Not many. So why?Could I be from another universe, but be involved with plants? But then, that would not explain why I think angel might fit.....Is angel only because I have phantom wings? If so, then maybe angel can be ruled out.Therefore, I must look very closely into this. Byes!Love,-WeepingTree
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American Indian Connection [Jun. 18th, 2006|01:35 pm]WeepingTree
Dear Journal,I did not talk about this in the previous post because I was too caught up in all my misery, due to what a friend had said. However, I will tell you now. You see, last night, I finally went to get my birthday present. We went to an American Indian store, where I got the drum I had wanted, and a necklace and some earings. But that was not what was so interesting. Appearently, the man in the store is about a quarter American Indian, and he told us quite a bit about their history. This made the experience very enriching! He also suggested that the reason I feel so connected to the culture is that I may have a little bit of American Indian blood in me. He said that alot of American Indians did not say that they were American Indians, and said that they were French, due to the fact that people in the U.S. were trying to exterminate them, a terrible, yet true fact. I do have some French blood in me. But my parents do not believe that we have any American Indian blood in the family. I still do not know. I am open to the possibility. Of course, the only real way to know, is to get some DNA tests done----not like we have the money. :(Well, that's about it for now, Byes!Love,-WeepingTree
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Old friend has been nasty [Jun. 18th, 2006|10:56 am]WeepingTree
I have an old friend who has not been nice about my indecisiveness earlier about my species. I know what I am now, but the way I search is different from most kin. I find something that seems like it might be right, try it, and if it does not feel right in a few days, I dismiss it. Well, this friend made a post publically saying that I was the most "indecisive" person that they have ever met. This hurt so much. Did they have to embarass me publically? *Sigh* Maybe I should not announce what I think I may be until about a month or so later, when it actually stays with me, and I know forsure. I am currently waiting to tell them that I am a tree. Not that I have recently found it.....I have always known, but was never open to it. I was looking in all the wrong places before. I have only just found that there is such thing as greenkin. Not only this, but she will not be happy to know that I am a tree.....she might find that weird, even though she is a therian. So thus, I must wait. Byes,Love,-WeepingTree
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Meh, no title [Jun. 17th, 2006|05:23 pm]WeepingTree
Dear Journal,I have been recently been very jittery. I guess I am excited because of a new LJ friend, and the new community I was recently accepted in. It feels nice to know that there are others of, "Green-blood" as everyone there seems to be calling it. I still don't know what kind of tree I am, but more and more I am thinking birch.Today I did a little yoga, at my yoga class, but I was nervous from the start because I was very late to the class, and the nervousness of possibly not getting there quickly enough must have stayed with me. But at the end of the class, I was very proud to do a wall hand stand, or something of the like (where one does the "down-ward facing dog" pose, and then puts their feet up and the wall, and "climbs" the wall with their feet, but hands remain on the ground), which I had never even tried before! Appearantly it is not that easy to do for everyone, because one woman had been practicing that for a while there before she got it, and most people could not do it. However, I did not succeed at the more complex hand-stand, which two people in the class were able to do. My guess is that they have been practicing yoga for a long time, and thus, they possess the ability to do such poses. Most yoga poses lately HURT, because I tend not to be especially balance/flexible. lolI am also currently waiting for my approaching birthday. My family promised me an American Indian Shaman drum for meditation. Yet my father is refusing to buy it yet. My birthday is really close! What does he expect? Me to wait a year?Well, that's what I can say for now.Byes!Love, -WeepingTree
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Woot! I am here! [Jun. 16th, 2006|05:19 pm]WeepingTree
This may be a very hyperactive post, as I am in a hyper mood at the moment....but I will try to stay calm. *Deep breath*. I guess I will start by introducing myself. I am a greenkin (otherkin who is a plant). I currently believe myself to be some sort of tree, either some sort of willow, bamboo tree, or most likely, a birch tree. But then again, there are so many trees out there, it is hard to know which one. I do believe myself to be a tree of the earth. (Some greenkin are from other planents, or realms.) I am also a bit vampiric, a psi/sang mix.I am female, and homosexual. I do not currently have a girlfriend, but I am looking, but not looking online...sorry. I do however always appreciate friends.My favorite star is Cher, but I enjoy all kinds of music. I love nature (a given) and much more.This introduction to you, journal, and those veiwing, is not a normal entry. I will not be introducing myself in other entries. Duh. Anyway, that's what I can think of for now.Byes,Love, -WeepingTree
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