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NEW LJ NAME!!!	[Aug. 25th, 2004|07:59 pm]//WisHn oN a POPstar*
As the title suggests, new LJ name... This one was getting a little too full, and I like to move on every now and then (see lady_thug, lol). prideeinpynk. Enjoy! :D
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Just a little lip to bite on...	[Aug. 24th, 2004|09:54 am]//WisHn oN a POPstar*
[**mood** |accomplished]Soooooo....Hi, I'm back again. I'm not dead. Soon I'll be online 24-7. *teenies*Moved into my new apartment out at school. LOVES IT! Very sexy times. No roommate as of the moment, but who knows what will happen with that.School is good. Nice boys. Haven't really met anyone yet, but hoping that will change. Professors seem pretty nice. Gov't teacher is this hippie lady who says 'shit' and 'fuck.' Awesome.I will join MySpace when the internet works at my place. Til then, don't ask me to. ;)Waking up early is seeming to work for me. I kinda like it actually. Having a whole day ahead of me instead of a half. Today I got up at 6:30, drove myself because there is virtually NO ONE trying to park this early, and had a sweet little spot almost outside of the building for my first and second classes. There's like 2 hour breaks between each of the three classes I have today, most of this one I spent eating/drinking at the Starbucks in the bookstore, reading the newspaper, and being online. It's a good morning so far.I <3 school and I am soooo pumped to be back. Don't ever take too much time off, because school is awesome. (Wow after school special much?)I'm sorry to everyone I can't hang out with this week. It's too hectic. Once I get into the swing of things it will be easier, and plus I have Sat. and Sun. off of school. And I wouldn't miss Hanson for my life, thankyouverymuch. See everyone later. <3s it.
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How's it gonna be when you don't know me?	[Jun. 10th, 2004|03:52 am]//WisHn oN a POPstar*
[**mood** |melancholy]After insulting me, belittling me after I confided my feelings in him, talking shit on Ricky, and basicly doing all he could to make sure that I started crying as soon as I closed my front door, Tan called me 5 times and told me he has a crush on me.I'm leaving the resturaunt.I can't deal with it. My life feels like it's spun out of control. I can't hold onto anything, not even an emotion. They come and go. I waft in and out of depression, sometimes within minutes. I just want to be sane again, and I feel like I've ruined everything beyond repair.Why can't you just have let me say I was sorry? Why couldn't you have just listened? Why did you stop caring about me so suddenly???? I thought we were having a good time. I'm sorry I didn't always show my feelings for you, but I've never felt that way about someone who actually felt the same and I was terrified. I wasn't me most of the time. I wish I could start over with you, that you would give me a second chance. I can't stand the fact that you wouldn't even look at me for a month and a half, or that we can barely talk. I'm sorry I act crazy sometimes, but it's because you make me nervous. I can't let it go because you're always there.
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(no subject)	[May. 22nd, 2004|06:42 pm]//WisHn oN a POPstar*
[**mood** |chipper]Candy's Graduation!!! YEY!Congrats bitch! ;)After the ceremony we went to Red Lobster with her parents. Yummy! Then we went to a party that earlier that day would've been a HS one, but most of the people had graduated that day. It was alright. Met Fez finally after all the times Candy talks about him. Her friends are hilarious...Then we went to this pool hall place. I hung out with Bakon while Candy macked it. ;) We 'hussled' these two guys at pool and played Ms. PacMan (I kicked Bakon's ass, of course.) Yeah buddy.Then SnS. People need to keep their things in their pants before the waitresses see them. Candy better mack it some more in front of some kid's mom.The next day we rocked some Universal. Almost died on the Mummy ride. Fought with a whole bunch of people. Don't piss me off, cuz I'll spit on your car, regardless of what cheesy pop group you were in... I bought a new bikini at Hollister, yey for sales.Going to see Shrek 2 tonight with Candy. :D
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Why do I do these things I do to myself?	[May. 20th, 2004|11:11 am]//WisHn oN a POPstar*
[**mood** |content]Two days ago: mini golfing/sleep-over with the girls and my first 100nightattheresturant.:DLastnight:ABADdayattheresturaunt,butImade100 night at the resturant. :DLast night: A BAD day at the resturaunt, but I made 100nightattheresturant.:DLastnight:ABADdayattheresturaunt,butImade50 so it's okay I guess. One table waited 25 minutes for their BURGERS, they were cooked wrong, the recook took another 15 minutes, and there was a hair baked into their desserts. Needless to say, they were not pleased.Afterward Alan, Christin, Tan and I decided to go mini golfing (surprise surprise, lol). We drank a few beers in the parking lot of the resturant then walked over, but it was closed, so we went to Fridays instead.Had some more beer and a couple shots, one of which had Malibu pineapple in it which is the fucking jump off. The other one tasted like butt, and I'm pining my eventual downfall on it.We leave for pizza and wings at some place down the road. I am THE drunk girl. I sit in Alan's car half passed out and then we take the pizza back to the resturant.I vomit. My first drink-puke experience. I vomited on Tan's shoe but that's only because he insisted on holding my hair. Later I vomited on the outside of his car. Oops. His fault for not pulling over. Everyone continued to eat and were just like 'Aw, it's okay. Everyone does it eventually. Nah, you're not ruining out appitite.' HOW CAN YOU EAT WHEN THERE'S SOMEONE VOMITTING LIKE THREE FEET FROM YOU?! lol...Fun night. No, really. Despite getting sick it was fun. I missed stupid HS-type binges when I was actually in HS, so it's nice to experience things, the good and bad.MY BACK IS KILLING MEEEEEEE!HAPPY GRADUATION CANDY!!!! *proud*
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Tell me how to win your heart, cuz I haven't got a clue...	[May. 18th, 2004|01:26 am]//WisHn oN a POPstar*
[**mood** |determined]Ricky talks random shit on me. WAY COOL! :(Ben is scruffy and we like it. Yeah dirty boys!I told Grant (Patrick's friend) I wasn't interested. Yey for honesty!Now I just need to figure out how long to wait before going after Patrick... *devil horns* ;) Gonna get the hot boy, gonna get the hot boy!
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Everytime I try to fly I fall, without my wings I feel so small...	[May. 13th, 2004|01:06 am]//WisHn oN a POPstar*
[**mood** |crappy]I am depressed. It happens.I want to start school, meet new people, quit my job at Houlihan's.I'm going to come out with it: I like Ricky. I still like him. I feel like an asshole for saying I don't, and for being a jerk to him the entire time we were 'seeing' eachother. I was a jerk to him for weeks, he was a jerk to me for one day, and I had to freak out. I miss talking to him.But I don't deserve anyone right now. I'm going to be a 30 year old virgin just because I can't handle myself around guys. I'm an idiot.To try an compennsate for the fact that I can no longer be around Ricky, I figured I would try and go after Patrick. Hah. I get his number, call him to maybe see if we could hang out, and he PUTS HIS FRIEND ON THE PHONE! WTF?! He's been trying to hook me up with this friend, and it's like 'OMG! I like you, not your friend you idiot!!' Just my luck...No Ricky.No Patrick.No Alan.No Ben.No Trevor.No anyone.*thumbs up*
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