sit with me by BlackBirdInk on DeviantArt (original) (raw)

a quick doodle. used a reff from polyvore so its tiny and i know nothing about it.

practicing with Paint tool sai.

thoughts: sometimes i think, if i draw enough and if i make it perfect. if i put my all into it, if i can trap my heart and all my emotions into one perfect picture, everything will click.
the right person will see and will understand. who i really am will be in that one picture.

have you ever thought if you make it perfect you will get love?

i know its irrational and i'm not really explaining it all that well... but my art is the one big thing about me. the one thing that you can see. it takes time to get to know or love a person, but art you can see right away.
i can draw beautiful people, there are whole worlds inside me, wast landscapes and adventures. but you can't see that just by looking. so i'm not beautiful, you wont catch yourself staring at me. i will never take your breath away. (well making you laugh does not count)
so somehow... art. somehow i got it into my head that you can fall in love with someone trough their art.

its exhausting in my head...