Drowning in your love by Cryptidink on DeviantArt (original) (raw)

This was a piece I made to attempt to depict some of the feelings I experienced during a five year abusive relationship that took apart my life as I knew it, including my health and sanity.
At first I was so in love, I was willing to drown in it, I put the anchor on a chain and wrapped it around myself willingly and I jumped in the water without looking back. I trusted him. I loved him with every fiber of my being, and he used that against me and made everything worse. He lied to me, he twisted the trust the make it believable, he used my mental illnesses against me and even made me believe his abuse was actually a result of my psychosis instead of real true abuse.
After I found evidence in my phone proving otherwise, I realize he’s been lying and manipulating me to forgive him and to keep coming back to him no matter how many times he hurt me. And every time I tried to fight to get my way out of the situation it got worse and I got dragged even deeper.
He was an anchor dragging me down to the pits of hell and I couldn’t let go.