Sound Of Silence by Hazel-Photography on DeviantArt (original) (raw)

First of all I feel a bit uneasy to have so many comments/replies in my inbox, but right now I'm not in the mood of answering! :'D

The last week as been the worst week this year so far. I'm used to be a loner. I am actually used to not have people around me 24/7, but this summer I got a total dose of being alone for almost the entire time, after the semester ended. And a few days ago it all ended with me crying my eyes out almost an entire night and the following morning. So later when I got back on track again I decided to order a plane ticket and after I move I'm going home to Germany for a few weeks! (I haven't decided on how long, but I'm pretty sure you guys are going to get an update now an then! ) But first of all I'm going to move on the 31. July, get a bit homey and unpack stuff and then I'm off to Germany on the 8. August!

I know most people don't really care of what my mental health is up to and I'm really sorry if I start to bother you with my several stress related breakdowns, but I find it quite relieving to just get the thoughts out of my head! I don't have many friends to bother with this either, just some up to 4 close ones that I can call or "bother" 24/7, even when it's in the middle of the night! And I don't want to talk too much about this with my mum as well, she's just getting worried sick at work and in generell, since we're so far away (she in Germany and me in Norway), so I truly just told her about "the tip of the iceberg" on what's going on with me and how I feel right now. And for the rest of my family, they all think of me to be the "bold" one, the one that can handle that sort of things easily, so I don't know if they would even react to that kind of topic with the sensitivity I need right now, that would include my dad as well! xD We're both the "bold" type so right now I can't handle his straight and honest answers, since they can sound mean even when he doesn't want them to be.

But yeah just so you guys know. I'm pretty sensitive nowadays and I don't feel quite well either. I never had such a "breakdown" or better several smaller breakdowns in such a short time, and I don't really know myself right now, haha. So in case I don't answer right away, or you guys think I take to much time to answer here's the reason why! So it's not all just the stress I feel from, packing and moving. This time it goes a little deeper it seems! But yeah even when you're a loner, too much loner isn't good either! :/

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Anyways, that was just to get the thoughts out of my head and tell you guys why I might be slow, or my answers might sound weird and kind of not like me!

Earlier this week this photo got quite some attention on Facebook, so I wanted to share it with you guys here as well! I really really like it and I always wanted to take this kind of photo. Personally I LOVE lavender, the plant, the smell, the everything and it always gives of this tiny bit of Tuscany-feeling, even when you're "lurking" around in Western Norway. xD I'm also really glad I went back home to get my 60mm lens that evening, or else I wouldn't have had the chance to take this and the other photos. I'm going to submit some more lavender only photos and also some with the ladybug on it! (But first the lavender ones, I haven't gotten around to edit the ones with the ladybug! )

I hope you guys don't mind the "rainbow"-light reflection thing in the lower corner of the picture... I did a little when I started to edit it, but now I'm just overlooking it, lol. xD The settings were a bit of and it was the first time I actually used the SCN-setting and it's HDR-backlight! xD And I didn't want to dig out my not so useful photoshop skills when it comes to edit out something like this, lol.

Okay, enough talk, I'm wasting away time that I should be using for packing. There's not much left, but I'm a human sloth right now xD