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I wanna, but I cant.

8 hours ago

[Vent]Isn't it very beautiful when you hate yourself so bad, that you only cry over self hatred. How wonderful it is to know that the one person you're connected to and ever wished to get comfort from.. isn't real... Just someone you made up. It's such a brilliant life to live when all you do is hurt everyone and be some devil that never expresses anything cause you're scared that vulnerability and showing weakness would hurt you again... This world is full of surprises.... .... and yet I'm left unbothered, Never been clean for half my lifetime, my intrusive thoughts very close to winning over since I was 7. And since "Guilt is not a response to anger; it is a response to one's own actions or lack of action" It's an unforgivable, regretful, thing to feel and go through. Knowing you weren't able to do enough. Life is just, mysterious.