Scoilt! (a poem) by nothoneybee on DeviantArt (original) (raw)

Split!

You love me,
but what of the things I hide from you
the madness that coils beneath my skin,
the secrets that whisper in the corners of my mind,
like shadows in a room you never enter?

I wear a face for you,
one smooth as porcelain,
but behind it,
I am all cracks and fractures.

The nights when I am two,
one who smiles and reaches for your hand,
and the other,
a storm, wild-eyed and silent,
screaming inside a glass cage.

You see only the calm,
the one who loves you,
but I am the hurricane too
and I wonder, would you love that
if I let it loose?

I am a body split
half light - half dark
and the thin line between them cuts deep.

Some days I walk that line,
teetering,
and you, steady as the moon,
never know.

I try to keep it from you,
these insanities, these twin selves,
because I fear the truth will frighten you.

But I wonder:
if I bared it all,
if I showed you the jagged bones,
the fierce, terrible beauty of my darkest thoughts,
would you love me still?

Or would you turn away,
unable to hold the weight of all I am?