selfish [vent] by peachiie-cat on DeviantArt (original) (raw)

my mother looks at me "you ask for too much" i look away, and stop asking

"you still ask for too much" i quiet down, and fall behind in the trek back to the car

"why do you hate me?" my sister looks on i dont answer, its simply a lie i bite my tounge

"you're a lazy peice of shit!" my stepdad's voice booms i sharpen my glare and force the tears to stay inside

"you draw yourself too much" i put down my pen the judging eyes keep stairing i throw away the pages

"stop asking for the doctor amelia! i havent gone in forever" i shut my mouth i go a mile a minute in my head i dont ask for a refill on my prescription

i do all you want, its not all about you amelia, why cant you realize that youre not the center of the world, not everyone cares about what your problems are, youre not interesting, youre problems are trivial compared to the rest you need to shut up you beg and whine for a doctor cause those fake little 'illnesses' in your head are bothering you cause you cant go a minute without feeling like you messed up you always mess up you take too long to do everything you dont try hard enough god youre so fucking shitty why cant you just be better why cant you stop being so selfish?