INSTINCTS by RAFAELGALLUR on DeviantArt (original) (raw)

She knew she should want only death now, it was after all the only thing left for her. Her honour and virtue had been torn, ripped from her having not only failed to kill herself when she had had the opportunity to after they had attacked the stage, but allowed savages to capture her so they could and did use her at their leisure. Now thoroughly used, abused and beaten she squats on the boulder in her silk undervest and booties where the buck, having chased her down after her perthitic unplanned doomed to fail attempt of escape and recaptured her had forced her. He forces her arms behind her and again she feels the rawhide, his rawhide cords biting and holding her wrists as once again he secures her. He holds her thus, arms behind pulled painfully up and back while the blade wheeling left hand pushes against her throat. His colleague is soon with them with a longer coil of thong.

Part of her hopes that death will now come it will end and his blade will sliced her throat, and some honour will return to her. But another part still wants to live, that instinct for life is stronger that the wish to die even if living means that she'll continue to be used until they return to the tribe where more than likely she will be nothing but the tribes slave.

Despite this she surprised that she would be happy to accept this if it meant life, she just wants to live. The first brave as well as her original captor takes another leather strap from his high-top moccasins which he uses on her booted ankles to hobbled them. As the second warrior arrived his coiled strap
closes snug about her upper arms, waist and a thinner cord like strand is about her neck as a leash.

A jerk on this cord chokes her and another forces her up to her feet where she's marched back to the camp.

Again she feels her own shame that she actually relieved, she hadn't wanted to die but knew that as a white woman she should have desired and sort this. She'll never have another chance to escape or to end her life now her captors will ensure this keeping her bound and secured and watched now and part of her is happy, glad of this. It will not stop her from trying again and again but the bucks wanted her alive or she knew she would have died on that boulder. Instead they will continue their hunt as well as her body and then at some point when the braves had had their fun She will be taken to their village and there to be incorporated into the tribes society. Their ways will become her ways their people will now be hers. None of her family, friends will now this, none will know of her shame, They will only know the stage was attacked, now there were no survivors and think she had been killed. That was for the best.