Not feeling like myself rn (vent) by Red-Room-Studi0 on DeviantArt (original) (raw)

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Published: Sep 26, 2023

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I don't feel like the me I used to be here, I see myself being all about drama and shit instead of just-... me and my art. I feel like i'm not making anyone feel better or happy here if this has been what I've been doing for the past while. I have also noticed that i've been a bit cold when it comes to bad people and individuals. And ppl in my discord don't like that i'm that way and go that far and now I fear that my friends and other people talk about that part of me that's been going on without me knowing. I don't want to be known this way here and I hate that this is what i've come to be. I've also noticed that i've been telling myself that I hate myself lately. My brain would take that as making fun of myself in a harmless way but now looking back at that, I feel like shit and that I actually genuinely hate myself.
Also I've come to this realization that I know why I became cold to the point I would take things a bit too far. You guess that yourself cause I'm not going to say and I prefer NOT to look back at all of that.
Anyways, I usually did "callout posts" and post drama because I wanted to show you guys and remind u that people can be stupid and harmful on the internet and to be aware of people like this. The only good ones I did post about were actual people who were actually manipulative and harmful. The rest were just small unimportant shit that I didn't need to make a big deal out of in the first place. And I know that you guys are getting sick of it at this point, and I don't blame you at all. So, i'm sorry for all of that stupid shit.
So basically what i'm saying is that all of that shit just made me more hateful and cold and just nitpicked on the smallest shit that wasn't even a huge deal.
So... I'm done. I'm done with "call out" posts. I'm done with drama. And all I ask is that you don't drag me into drama cause I want to better myself AND I never wanted to be part of drama in the first place. If it's someone who is actually harmful then we can talk. But other than that. I'm done with that shit. I want people to be comfortable and happy here again and now everything has gone dark and not fun. So again, I'm sorry for all of that bullshit. You never needed that shit from me. You guys deserve so much better from me than all of that bs.
Thanks for reading. Hope this- at lest makes you guys feel better about me and everything here.

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