[Last Melody] by Selk0uni on DeviantArt (original) (raw)

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just some emotions i had to get out from myself.
please, please ignore this.
i drew and wrote this to my past and future selves, not for anyone of you, guys.
im serious about this, okay? great. you are requested to leave this web page now, thank you.

past; welcome to this word, dear. oh no, don't be so naive. its will get worse, believe me. but don't worry, no. everything will be fine, you will get use to this. keep quiet, save the silence.

my head hurts from thoughts of death. my eyes bleeding from watching fake dreams. my lips ache from the salty lies i've told. my soul screaming from suffering. my memory killing me slowely, from the inside. every word like an arrow, making me drown in self-hatred. im chocking inside the fog of feeling and emotions that i dont understand.im tired from all this. i dont want to live. i dont want to die. i want to keep dreaming. i want to dream forever, and never wake up.

words are useless, and apologies wont return the past.
im an egoistic, reckless idiot. but i just don't care anymore.

future; listen to the last notes of your life, don't be afraid, everyone dies at the end. just close your eyes, and enjoy the show. you dreamed of this. and now its here. everyone is gone, and you are next. but you wont go to the light, no. you will run away, to the darkness. you will run, and run. forever. falling into the endless white rabbit's hole.

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