SininenPerhonen - Hobbyist, General Artist | DeviantArt (original) (raw)

Literature

To strong and to weak at the same time

I am scared scared of too much scared of too little where is the healthy middle-way? the perfect middle-way? with which I will do everything right? I´m not scared of food if I know its exact caloric content and if I know that it is too little no fear of death only fear that others could mourn I would like so much to eat a piece of cake or a pizza with someone but that is too much for me so much my body does not need so much I do not deserve because I am worthless inside of me there is emptiness but no hunger emptiness, that I fill with thoughts of food, that I don´t allow myself to eat that I also miss often I lost my natural instincts I am frugal need almost nothing so much the better so I don´t have to buy so much my self-restraint is too strong to let me eat more it chases me into death the amount, that I eat, is enough for me I don´t want more even if it tastes good, I am able to restrain myself I can split it into smaller portions so I can have it more often That is my