Benri by tunesan on DeviantArt (original) (raw)

I probably should draw my adopted OCs more lol

just to gave them all enough attention and love- I feel bad lmao

Trying to get myself back to work on commissions again but I feel so drain.

it really discourage me that my relative keep yelling at me that I can barely make enough benefit for them right now. Honestly, I know I've used this excuses a bunch of times but, I'm so fucking damn tired- Really, I'm tired. I hate that I can't be free, I have to make something good enough for them to be satisfied but yet they continue to lectured me and call me a demon and abusive for being quiet and vague kid. Me just what's wrong with being quiet ??? lmao

Can I at least have some peace and vibe ?? ah, no- I can't. Why ? I don't know. They made a lot of assumption fact about me. I'm just their caregiver so I'm always with them 24/7, every single year, and all I've been getting "Not good enough" and "useless" shit.

I wanna work hard as drawing so much more so it can distract me from problems and gave my family some beneficial, but, I'm too tired to work a lot. I hate that they keep nagging and throw tantrums all because of me.

They never acknowledge their mistakes- When I call out the mistakes, like they hardly listen to me. Their response is just "I'm old, so you're the one who should listen to me". so yea, "respect elders" type of shit again and again. so damn tiring that I'm this close wanna snap, but I held it in because why ? God says so (😇)

But no- seriously, I'm too tired to talk as well. lol

I wanna go, but they ruled me not to. I have to be with them so they can have a little adventure too. I do think they deserve some adventures since they barely go outside and miss the opportunity, I don't wanna be with them though- I rather them have their own time without me so they can feel fresh and shit.

But they hardly listen, they rather stay home and if they wanna go out, I have to be with them. I don't wanna though but as a caragiver, okay. I can't argue back lol

Software: Paint tool sai 2

Character: Benri Akamida (C) me
My Hero Academia / Boku No Hero Academia - Kohei Horikoshi

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