| I moved back from Brooklyn, didn't even stay the whole month. New York and Hunter were expensive and lonely and it's weird but I'm actually feeling really good about being back in Providence. I'm looking for somewhere to live here, applying for jobs and taking classes at Wheaton College for free. I'm in a Soviet film class and a photography class, I'm waiting to hear what level of Russian I should take, and I'm hoping to get into Black Political Thought. I'll have to drive/carpool a lot, but I will be so much more financially free because my classes will be free, and because i'm in classes, i get to keep my insurance. it's also really great because i'm not doing it for a degree exactly and i have sophmore standing so I can take any classes i want and not worry about required shit. i think i've been away from Providence long enough to enjoy it for a while. I've been hanging out with Zara and David and Willa a bunch, drinking coffee, riding my bike... the quarry is over because cops have been showing up. not talking to graham and not going to parties and drinking and smoking less and not spending money is helping, i feel clean and ready and new. it's like crazy summer is over and i can get back into a new swing of things. probably won't get laid or make many new friends, but i'll get my shit together to transfer schools, save money, etc etc.it's not the greatest place in the world, but i love Providence for friends and safe biking and Building 16 and seeing people I know every time i get coffee and walkability and cheap rent and urban farms and the salty ocean smell. i know i'll get that inkling to leave again and i will, but right now Providence is a place where i can stop and replenish and give my mind time to heal from school and moving and summer and bad relationships and all the things i kept putting in my body because i didn't want to deal with life. |
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