Never Alone (original) (raw)
Thu, May. 19th, 2005, 12:22 pm
First day of summer vacation and I woke up with a migraine. Bad omen? I think so....mom made me pick up an application for Cafe Angelica. WooHoo! so psyched about waitressing. Actually, it is a nice place, but I don't want to work!!! Well, i do want $, but i'm too lazy for anything right now. I'm planning on talking to Shirley tomorrow about when i can start at the Library, but i hope she won't mind if i take a week off in July for YouthQuake 2005!!! PLEASE let my parental units agree for me to be able to go this year! Tiff needs the initial fee by Saturday, and I REALLY want to go. mother needs her damn root canal taken care of, though. AND i still need my digital camera (eventually- eBay isn't helping me out right now). AND i have to take another 1/2 credit of bogus weightlifting in June to clear up my gym credits. Let's just say, I'm not in the best of moods currently. AND i don't have a car yet (technically i do, but my freakout mom won't let me get my liscense for fear that our insurance will go through the roof. curse her!)WHERE'S MY SILVER LINING?!?!?
P.S. on a positive note, Minji emailed me finally!
Thu, Mar. 17th, 2005, 03:30 pm
HAPPY ST. PATRICK'S DAY!!!
Sat, Feb. 5th, 2005, 11:28 am
they moved this morning. Right now they should be near Des Moines. He took his X-box, curse him. Oh well, depression is my middle name I guess. One less thing to worry about yet the stress is beating me mercilessly into the ground.
Mon, Jan. 3rd, 2005, 05:21 pm
New Year's Resolutions:
1. stop procrastinating on biology reports
2. ask out Colin- if he doesn't ask me first(!)
3. volunteer at the shelter more (if possible)
4. READ books for English book reports
5. do my chores when asked (to prevent grounding)
6. practice, Practice, PRACTICE!!! (sports, choir solo, piano, government, etc.)
7. audition for the Spring Talent Show (well, maybe next year...)
8. stop eating so much junk food : P
Sat, Jan. 1st, 2005, 12:18 pm
It's officially 2005, hooray!!! I am so ready to start this new year; full of new possibilities, new changes, and new experiences. I pray to you Lord that you help me and everyone else to make a positive difference in someone's life today and everyday following. Help me spread your word and teachings throughout the world and make 2005 the best year it can possibly be. I pray that you help me through all my tribulations and purify my heart and soul from all of these:
lust
greed
anger
hatred
envy
Fill my spirit with kindness, joy, peace, compassion, sincerity, love and happiness. Let all that I do be for you and not for myself. Break me of bad habits and help me to resolve any issues with my peers or family that distance me from them. Guide my tongue so that I do not spit words of hate or anger but words of kindness. I pray for prosperity, and success, but do not let money or possessions control my life. I'm as free as a bird on this new day, let me soar on eagles wings. Lift my spirits high and open my heart and mind to all things new. Be with me always and everyday in 2005, as I continue to thank you for all of the blessings you bestow on me. AMEN : )
Thu, Dec. 30th, 2004, 05:28 pm
I feel really tired even though I've slept all day practically and haven't done anything except watch Tomb Raider (again), eat, and get online.
*sigh* I like Christmas break but now I have nothing to do except vegetate. I feel so useless and unproductive, like I should be doing something but i'm so lazy. Nana wants me to go to her big New Year's bash (w/ fireworks, woohoo...!) and everyone's supposed to be there. But I've got, like, 3 other places i'm supposed to go to tomorrow, and i'll probably just end up going over to the Strouss's. *sigh* I have no social life whatsoever.
Tue, Dec. 28th, 2004, 03:42 pm
Worked at the shelter today. They're reopening the homeless shelter next week and the place is a total dump. It smells and there's junk all over the place and the dust and mildew makes me sneeze. I'm still sick so none of that helps either. But I don't mind volunteering, it makes me feel very satisfied to be able to do something productive over the Holiday break. I feel covered with warm fuzzies all over :) But now I'm SOOO tired....i think i'll go take a nap or something.
Sat, Dec. 25th, 2004, 11:14 am
MERRY CHRISTMAS!!! I am so happy right now. Sure, i'm sick and have a cold and my head hurts from last night's 'partying', but i feel so.....OK with everything, you know? I remember when I used to wake up every Christmas morning with my brother and we'd jump up and down on my parents' bed begging to go open presents. My mom would make us wait in agony while she took a whole roll of pictures of us holding our unopened gifts, our hands posed to shred the helpless wrapping paper the instant the camera flashed. Everything had it's own tradition: the decorations, the big breakfast, staying in our pjs all day, etc. Now Cory is married and moved out i'm all alone on X-Mas morning (until they come over), and we're skimping on decorations and purchasing wimpy, scrawny trees from the local Price Cutters. I guess you could say I'm afraid of change, afraid of losing tradition as I grow up and we move to town and everything being so different and complex. But this year is different. As i'm typing this i can hear everyone laughing downstairs and smell breakfast in the oven, and here the cats getting into trouble as they discover the joys of tissue paper and stockings that haven't been hung with much care. I woke up this morning with a smile on my face; bc I realize that none of that stuff is really important: God gave it all to me so i could be happy. And today, i truly am. He is so awesome, providing us with all that we could ever want and need. I could never thank Him enough for how much he's blessed me. I am so loved and blessed, I could care less if I get the cell phone and the mp3 player I asked for (although it would be nice). I know now what truly matters. MERRY CHRISTMAS! I hope everyone has a wonderful and amazing Christmas today. God bless :)
Wed, Dec. 22nd, 2004, 05:00 pm
AAARRRRGGGGHHHH!!!! i still have to wrap presents (definitely not one of my finer talents) UURRGGHH.
Wed, Dec. 22nd, 2004, 03:25 pm
Huh. I guess I never thought this would be so addictive. Sure I like to write and stuff but it's kind of awesome to be able to BLOG! Ha! I'm a blogger! hahahahahahahahah! :D I wonder who came up witht that word...whatever now I can tell people how cool it is. I'm keeping up with the times you might say. I don't know why i should think this is cool or anything but it is. i like to write down all the things going on in my head and i'm faster at typing than at writing anyways (plus it's illegible). oh well i guess i'm spoiled tikking away at my computer with my mind glued to a screen of megapixels. technology is so gnarly. but what else do i have to do? schools out and i have no homework for 2 whole weeks!!! nothing more practical comes to mind I guess. wow--brain overload--maybe i should stop for a while lol