ALLIEKINS <3! (original) (raw)
Tuesday, August 1st, 2006
12:16 am
i literally havent updated ina year, i ahve a new boyfriend, i love him for real, hes amazing....i still et too jealous, im in college i love UCF...i hate stupid ppl....im sad
Sunday, November 13th, 2005
1:23 am
ahh you drive me xrazy...i miss you SO much!!
Sunday, October 30th, 2005
4:16 pm
I know I've been mistaken
But just give me a break and see the changes that I've made
I've got some imperfections
But how can you collect them all and throw them in my face_But you always find a way to keep me right here waiting_
You always find the words to say to keep me right here waiting
And if you chose to walk away I'd still be right here waiting
Searching for the things to say to keep you right here waiting
I hope you're not intending
To be so condescending it's as much as i can take
and you're so independent
you just refuse to bend so I keep bending till I break
But you always find a way to keep me right here waiting
You always find the words to say to keep me right here waiting
And if you chose to walk away I'd still be right here waiting
Searching for the things to say to keep you right here waiting
I've made a commitment
I'm willing to bleed for you
I needed fulfillment
I found what I need in you
Why can't you just forgive me
I don't want to relive all the mistakes I've made along the way
But I always find a way to keep you right here waiting I always find the words to say to keep you right here waiting
But you always find a way
To keep me right here waiting
You always find the words to say to keep me right here waiting
And if I chose to walk away would you be right here waiting
Searching for the things to say to keep me right here waiting
Jordan...everytime...i hate this.
Saturday, October 15th, 2005
1:24 am
i was soo worried my weekend was gonna suck, but i realize that i ahve the best friends...LW, AS, AA, and JC i love you girls so much...always know when i need a shoulder and always there to listen to me bitch..i cant wait for next weekend and our CRUIISIISSEEEE!! LAPLAYA!!!!!
WE WON THE CAT FISH BOWL...duh!
<3_ _ _ _ _<3 but dont think im gonna take your shit....jsut dont cross that line
Thursday, October 13th, 2005
1:48 pm
Now we’re broken on the floor
She just wants me to share her
It hasn’t been this way before
She just wants me to dare her
The phone rings
And she screams
Stab my back
It’s better when I bleed for you
Walk on me
It never was enough to do
Can’t get past her
Falling faster
It's true.
It hasn’t done a lot for you
And every time he held u close
Yeah were you thinking of me
When I needed you the most
Well I hope that you’re happy
The phone rings
And she screams
Stab my back again
It’s better when I bleed for you
Walk on me
It never was enough to do
Can’t get past her
Falling faster
It's true
It’s better when I bleed for you
I hope that love he gave you
Was just enough to save you
You nearly broke my heart
Just look at what you’re tearin apart
Stab my back again
It’s better when I bleed for you
Walk on me
It never was enough to do
Can’t get past her
Falling faster
It's true
It hasn’t done a lot for you
It’s better when I bleed for you
It never was enough to do
It hasn’t done a lot for you
Sunday, October 2nd, 2005
6:07 pm
ughh..i get to jealou too easy and always fuck things up...i still over analyze too much..when will i ever learn to leave good enough alone and not to fuck with things?
Saturday, September 24th, 2005
9:35 am
i love my friends. i love Da Ru Mas. and i love the 18 people who went last night.
Wednesday, September 21st, 2005
5:55 pm
fate. what an odd thing...i dont knwo how to look at it....i didnt go, he feel inlove with someone else, now i run into him everywhere...god..i feel like i made a mistake...i should of been with him instead of tinkerbell...i dunno this is weird.
Sunday, September 18th, 2005
9:36 pm
another night...i had to go to my quiet place tonight...i hate you so much...i hate everything...i want to forget my past competely of you...you took my best part...fuck you
Thursday, September 15th, 2005
10:34 pm
i am SO sick of being treeated like shit from you, i so sick of feeling like im not good enough...jsut tell me thr truth...i hate this shit...another lonley night in amsterdam...fuck amsterdam..Naples....argh
Wednesday, September 14th, 2005
6:41 am
four months later and this si what im left with. its finally done now? yes.
Are you out of my head? no.
Will i ever get over you? eventually.
will you ever stop hurintg me? no.
Will we ever date again? no.
Do i want to ever date you again? no.
Will i ever stop loving you? no.
Are we friends? no.
and i dont care.
Tuesday, September 13th, 2005
2:11 pm
hating you comes so easy right now...but i know that behind all the hate is always what im trying to cover up.
Sunday, September 11th, 2005
1:49 pm
Best Weekend ever. I love ym camp friends, i love how we are and how we dont care about what people think....Happy Birthday Darin....i love you guys!!!!
On a more personal note:
i dont want to be friends with you.
i cant be friends with you.
We will never be friends.
You lost as anything for ever.
I hope she breaks your heart.
Sunday, September 4th, 2005
1:55 pm
Saturday, September 3rd, 2005
11:46 am
no your on the one who came home at 9:30 to be with him jsut to be left alone
NO your not the one that is delaying being with her friends to go get breakfast and then is being forgotten about
NO YOUR NOT SO DONT SAY THAT YOU KNOW!
FUCK YOU!
Sunday, August 28th, 2005
7:10 pm
soo im home...finally..my weekend:
Thursday: left after school...drove to tally...slept
Friday: Woke up at 7....drove to new orleans...drank...dinner..went out with Josh and andrew...came home around 2...slept.....
Saturday: wake up early....see josh..Move andrew in at tulane...get evacuated because of the "deathbomb" thats about to destroy New Orleans...drive to Tally....party in tally...go to sleep
Sunday: Drive from Tallyu to G-ville- to naples
my weekend was driving...atleast 6 hours a day...fuck...andrew wont be going to college for liek another few weeks b/c of the mandatory evacuation from New Orleans and the surrounding areas i feel really bad....is dorm kicks ass though.
Wednesday, August 24th, 2005
8:39 pm
And So there were 3..James, andrew and Carly.
7:00 am
Is that weird if i have a weird attraction to the lead singer of my chemical romance??
Monday, August 22nd, 2005
9:13 pm
what ab bad fucking day i jsut came home adn cried, im so over whelmed, not even with school or college but with change and saying goodbye to andrew...i was tierd today, i hate the new parking stickers for school, i hated waiting for 40 minutes for it, i hate people,i hate how i still miss people, i hate how i miss my camp friends so much and i hate how my friends belittle me, i hate how i do good things, i hate how andrew wont be there anymore, and i hate how a certain someone flipped out on me last night and told me abunch of shit. I jsut had to break down. i dont want to say bye to andrew, im sos cared we are going to drift apart, hes my best firned i ouwld rather bw with him then anyone else any day any second....and now hes leaving for college and im proud of ihm and im excited for him, hes going to to have a blast and hes earned it but i dont want him to forget about me, i mean i know im his siter but its jsut soo hard for me, im scared for the furutre i dont like change, i dont want him to leave me, nothign is evre going to be the same again...nothing..hes going to ahve 2 lives now and i dont liek that, bwecause im only a part of one of them...i liek how it is..and its never going to be like that after saturday.
12:21 am
am i really just extra baggage? sometimes i dont notcie things i should...college is a time for space, why should i keep hanging on to something thats going away...hes right maybe he jsut wants space..maybe i am jsut a nuscience....fuck.