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| | Monday, October 5th, 2009 2:25 pm - wow no wonder people are looking at me weird 2007 ithought i had posted after that last entire and maybe i did and just dont remeber any whom i am here i am looking for some old friends form wall street a few in particular javier and ceaser and Nhu if she reads this or they do contact me people :) (comment on this) Wednesday, August 15th, 2007 2:40 am - FATE AND ITS FICKLE FINGERS why oh why does fate toy with me. I cam back to live journal after a very long hiatus. i read comments from a few folks and then BAM! the one that makes my heart soar and burn all in the same moment. Words and weapons and very effective ones at that insipired and driven by thoes words i challenge the gods and fate itself and her sisters to either stop toying with me and give me what i desire or let me go to the abyss one way or another let me know. i am here in hell already what more can you do to me ? Suna Suna Suna why do you torment me haunt my sould and ravbage my heart and fill me with love so powerful i feel as though i could do anything i will move earth and ocean the gods if need be. I have never felt that way for ANYONE ever. I can but call up hundreds of thoughts and images and words and anyhting else of you that is in my mind. if you call i will be there.ask and it shall be yours. just tell me and stop tormenting me. i walk through fire everyday for a simple choice of go or stay, many years ago i should have stayed.my choice i know just talk to me my friend. it has been to long.Rcurrent mood: drained (comment on this) Thursday, May 1st, 2003 2:50 pm Thursday, April 24th, 2003 11:21 pm 11:11 pm Tuesday, April 8th, 2003 9:22 pm ia m starting to walk down a path and i am not sure of ithe answers i will find nor if i will like them , but the information should be worth the process. i want to learn hebrew so if any one has any suggestions i am all ears :), since death seems to be parth of the process and i for one am not to hyper to find it out for many years to come i am going to other road looking for that whihc most call god some call christ , goddess etc etc etc if i find what i am looking for i will let you all know that is if i am still alive :) . now dont get me wrong i have faith i believe i am looking for other answers whihc my faith says are there but my logic fights i have to make a deal or something in myslef to b alble to move on so to speak . so i am offcurrent mood: contemplative (3 comments | comment on this) Sunday, April 6th, 2003 9:12 pm so i went to game last night here in jax a local game not OWBN and i have learned that the people here are stupid when they play . but then again what do you expect, this is jax :) one of these days i will get around to actuelly writing in this daily but i doubt tat will happen anytime soon . i at least am posting more often then i was before. and i think that is good. here in jax i am alone pretty much i feel out of sorts with this place , like i am not supposed to be here there are very few people i want to hagn out with and thoes becasue i have no choice but to sometimes. i tend to avoid people my wife picks up as friendds simply because she accuses me of taking over her frineds so i leave that alone . she is currently out with her friends and i am here at home alone with my mother in law ugh . these lonely moments t end to make my mind wander toward death. my father inlaw passed away last year and i have yet to be able to shake it completly, i dont fear death but i am not sure if i am ready for it either. i want to love a long time in love and happiness , but then again if the lord and lady want me who i am to object ? i just wish there was some form of open communication with thoes who have gone on. but for some reason we can manage that , we can send a man to the moon build computers and such but that we are incabaple of doing. either way it makes me all introspective looking back at my life and what i have done and what i rember it s weird to get this inward looking at my age i mean i am only 29 still its enough, the universe will be what it will be and i will find a way to communicate if there is one. i owe him that much. hang on to what you have people cause when its gone you cant get it back but only rember what they were. love as thou wilt above all dark archoncurrent mood: lonely (comment on this) Friday, March 28th, 2003 7:11 pm 7:08 pm 7:04 pm You kill and eat little children, and probablymolest their corpses.You're not tryinghard enough, though, because there's stillplenty of assholes in the world! You might goto Heaven if you can thin the herd a bit. TheLord hates fuckers hanging around and messingup His Creation, after all. HOP TOIT.Sicko. Why Will You Go To Hell? brought to you by Quizilla (comment on this) 7:00 pm 6:56 pm 6:53 pm Friday, March 7th, 2003 6:08 am Thursday, March 6th, 2003 9:28 am 12:25 am so i ahve been talking with a friend adn discovering that we have a lot of the same feelings for each other and have had them for a time why is it that humans cant express themsleves whe and how they want . i whis that we cold unlock all of our bodies ablities along wiht our mindscurrent mood: amused (comment on this) Tuesday, March 4th, 2003 4:21 pm The second book written and the third chronologically, you're the story of a Narnia hundreds of years after the last visit, populated by mythological creatures struggling to overthrow a king determined to wipe them out. Susan's Horn brings help when it's most needed ...Find out which Chronicles of Narnia book you are. (comment on this) Sunday, March 2nd, 2003 7:24 pm - hate sundays Monday, February 24th, 2003 2:52 pm you know i begin to wonder about humanity some times what are we coming to and what will we become is everything we read about true is there life after death ? sometimes i wonder . reincarnation ? well if that is the case would she be getting smarter not dumber heaven ? well if its the christan version i dont wanna go something about boring that doesnt go well with me speaking of christans and heaven it reminds me of something else if angels are inferior as we are told how come they have all the cool powers and the wings and such and we who are he oinnacle of gods achievment have nothing but free will ? i mean really would you not chose to be a servant of god with all thoes niffty things than to have free will ? i mean you dont really ahve it now anyway what would be the difference this friendly reminder brought to you by you r local neighbor hood dark archon recruiting across the galaxy to keep you safe fro the space marines and the zerg :)current mood: amused (comment on this) Sunday, February 23rd, 2003 9:47 pm - idiots and gas satans err stations alright so i work in a gas station on third shift big deal work is work, not saying i mind the job and the hours but i notice the closer to 2:30 am the more the idiots come out. now i play larp OWBN vampire larp, vampires hunt humans, i think i understand why they hunt at night it has othing to do with that sunlight flaw it has to with a free meal :) the more they feed the less idiots. Now where are the vampires to come to my station dammit :) (comment on this) | | 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