digital::daydreamer::v4.0 (original) (raw)

Because I forgot to add something:

I miss you. All of you. I miss the people that I spent the better part of last summer annoying the shit out of.

Asja: I know I still see you around, but not nearly as much as I'd like. You're still my idol, regardless. You may not realize it, but you've given me a lot of really good advice that I probably wouldn't have taken from anyone but you. You practically had to tie me down to get me to listen, but I appreciate it. Seriously. And if you leave, I'll probably cry. And you'll have to come back to see Lucas when he's born.

Robert: You drove me crazy. I HATE being proven wrong, but you were good at it. I respect you for that. Though we've got about a decade between us, you're still young at heart, and I like to think I'm older than I am. You gave me a lot of stuff to think about, and a new way to look at it. Your sense of humor is hysterical, and I'll never forget watching you and Chad dance a drunken Irish jig. Too damn funny. You could still whoop my ass in HALO with your eyes closed, but that's okay, because I wasn't playint to win, I was playing because you guys were funny as shit to game with.

Dusty: I really don't know what to say to you. I get this idea that you resent me for being with Chad, and if that's so, I'm sorry. Yeah, I'll admit, it drove me crazy that someone could be closer to Chad than I was, and so what's a girl to do. She get's jealous. But you're seriously a great guy, and though your spontanuity was somewhat perplexing, it made the day/night/whatever all the more entertaining. You're one of the few people I know who could play a Malkavian 'naturally'.

Allison: Though she never reads this.... Sweets, you got a long road ahead of you, and so much life to expeirience. I know you hate it when I give you those, "When I was your age" spills, but it's true. Please don't take advantage of what you have before you. You've got so much damned opportunity. Don't do what I did. Please God don't. And though it still annoys me when I hear about your drinking and/or drugging, I can't really point fingers. I just wish I'd known then what I do now. It's all true what they tell you. Your mother really was right, and youth really is wasted on the young. I had to grow up overnight, and I hate it. I read about you and Trey and the rest of them doing stuff 15-18 year olds do, and I'm SO jealous. I can't be that person anymore, which I guess is why none of you ever call, or ask me to come along. But seriously, you're the little sister I never had, and I'll always be lookin' out for you.

I know this isn't a complete list, but just reminiscing over my old LJ entries made me really want to tell you all that you're loved, even though I am seemingly non-existant. I have my little world. It just pisses me off that my world consists of the people within these four walls. Me, Chad, mom, and Lucas. I really miss that thing called a social life.

My cell phone # hasn't changed. I work all the time, but I'd still love to hear from you guys.

Much love.