In My Head (original) (raw)

Its been a bit since I've posted. Things are really just crappy over here, but I'm trying to stay positive and hold on! My husband got laid off from his new job. Again. So sick of this cycle! We finally get our own place, get excited that "yay! we are gonna make it!" then all hell seems to come down on us. Not going to go into detail how many things are do, whats getting cut off, etc, just saying.. it SUCKS more than you can imagine and I never pictured my life being like this!

On the bright side, I keep telling myself FIVE MORE MONTHS and NO MORE STRUGGLING. I'll be done with nursing school, can get on at a local hospital in the Emergency Department as a new graduate, take the state board exam, and I'll get a raise to my Registered Nurse status, then I'm THROUGH. Through with this struggling mess! Through with overdue bills, through with pawning things. Through with the eating at mom and dad's house cuz we can't afford groceries. I thank God for my family, who are so supportive and loving and live only 10 minutes away.

Classes start back August 28th for my very last term which ends early December. I'm going to start preparing myself and review the last 3 terms. Still searching for an extern position. I'm watching my application status at a hospital around here for an operating room position.. application was reviewed June 30th. Hoping they call me for an interview.

Hubby did have an interview monday at a sheet metal shop, he is supposed to know within the next 14 hours if he got the position or not. I hope he did! For his sanity and mine!

Garrett (my 3 year old) is doing well. Did I ever mentioned he's potty trained? Do you know how amazing that is as a mother?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?! No more diapers. Its so great.

I'm determined to control at least one thing in my life - which is my body. The weight gain is terrible! My mom got me Zumba DVDs for my birthday (i begged), I like it a lot! Going to start recording results when I routinely get into it. And why is healthy food more expensive?!?!?!?!?!?!

Throwing my sister a baby shower July 10th. She is due in November. Its very early for a baby shower, but she lives on the other side of the state and this will be her last visit here before the baby is born and she has friends/family down here.

I have neglected my LJ. Its really quite therapeutic.. I'm afraid I'd use it as a constant bitch fest if I used it daily. But when I get on here, I read all of you guys, sometimes dont have the time to respond, but I'm reading, and thinking of you all <3