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I see the advancing spring, from the winter of my life

TalentedTongue

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May 28th, 2007

Well, I think I've been ruined for life. I love giving head! Something about the feel of him inside of my mouth is amazing. We still haven't had sexual intercourse, but I'm starting to want to really bad. I casually mentioned condoms and he told me to really think about loosing my virginity, that he wanted to make sure that I wasn't doing it just so I could make him happy. What a guy, right?!?! So I'll think about it some more. I have an appointment to get started on birth control, b/c I don't want to start growing people. So at the most he has over a month to wait for me to really be ready. I do think I really want him to be my first though. In the mean time there is always oral sex and lots of the dry humping that he loves.

Bottom line, I'm very, very happy!!!

April 2nd, 2007

Well I told Phil today that I was a virgin and although there were a few awkward moments everything is great. I got major respect points which I didn't expect b/c normally dude look at me either like a freak or something to be conqured. He did say that I will have to make any first moves b/c he doesn't think he will be able to. So over the next little while I have to get over being "chased". I really hope this all works out b/c I really like him.

March 24th, 2007

Well, the guy that i'm kinda talking to (Just talking for now) told me last night in a general conversation that the only thing he wasn't at all intrested in was anal sex. The fact that I'm very curious about it kinda sucks. He is a really kewl dude and this is just the beginning, but he pretty much said that he was disgusted by it. Oh well... He better not feel the same way about oral sex, b/c that ish is a deal breaker!

March 22nd, 2007

I'm so sexually frustrated I don't know what to do. I'm turned on almost all the time, it's getting out of control. I mean I masturbated at work for God's sake. This dry spell is grating on my nerves. How do people live like this?

January 2nd, 2007

I’m going to try this journaling thing. I guess it will be nice to be able to release all the dark thoughts I have in my head w/o fear. So let’s see, I’m a 25 year old virgin, I know…hard to believe right? Well it’s true, and to say the least I’m beginning to be obsessed with all things sexual. I have been preoccupied with sex since I was around the 4th or 5th grade. I have been able to keep a tight reign on things b/c I was interested in a career and saw what trouble sex got young people into. Not that I’ve got that degree I want to fall in love and express that physically. Ah well here’s to hoping!