dancing slowly forever sick (original) (raw)
I used to believe the universe was basically hostile. And that I was misplaced in it, I was different from it. . . fashioned in some other universe and placed here, you see. So that it zigged while I zagged. And that it had singled me out only because there was something weird about me. I didn't really groove with the universe.
I had a lot of fears that the universe would discover just how different I was from it. My only suspicion about it was that it would find out the truth about me, and its reaction would be perfectly normal: it would get me. I didn't feel that it was malevolent, just perceptive. And there's nothing worse that a perceptive universe if there's something weird about you.
But this year I realized that that's not true. That the universe is perceptive, but it's friendly. . . I just don't feel that I'm different from the universe anymore.
- Philip K. Dick in an interview, 1974.
There's something I really love about this quote.
April 7th, 2010
Since I can't live-tweet things or watch new episodes with somebody, I've been typing my thoughts out as I watch. I apparently skipped writing one for The Package, but here's three of the last four episodes. Comments are time-stamped for anal people!
( Happily Ever AfterCollapse )
Okay, glad to get that all out. Okay, two LOSTies still on LJ - let's discuss this shit!
July 26th, 2009
I'm leaving the country on Saturday. Friday I'll be in DC for pre-departure meetings; Wednesday and Thursday I'll be packing like a madman. Tuesday is probably the last day I'll have time to spend hanging out. Also, I'm dropping my American cell phone number, so come Sunday you should delete me from your phone book.
Meantime, my tenshirei handle's become a little more public lately, so I bought a couple months of paid time and made every post before 2009 friends-only, with the exception of the Mac Users' Resource Megapost. I expect most things will be friends-only in future; not a big deal, since who reads this but LJ friends? ;)
June 10th, 2009
I got into JET this week. This means I'll be leaving at the beginning of August to spend the next year teaching English in Japan. :)
In the meantime, I was hoping to celebrate with some deep house tomorrow night at Element, but I need anybody else at all over 21 to be interested, or it looks like another night at home for me. Thursday night we're going to Mars Bar I guess.
If anyone is interested in going to Mars Bar on Thursday maybe we'll make plans.
April 30th, 2009
Winged Nation, the poetry magazine I had work accepted in last semester, came out today. I'm horribly disappointed.
The layout is SHIT. Either that or I'm a layout snob and prefer cleaner, quieter magazines, but really both are true. The writings are good, and the photographs are good - I don't want to disparage my fellow contributors - but the pages with my poems SUUUUCK. The pictures don't match; in fact, the pictures are so unrelated that they make my poems look ridiculous. "zuki zuki", a poem about heartbreak and the worst kind of anger, is laid out next to a picture of a statue of the Virgin Mary, for God's sake! And the other poem is printed over a gradient that makes it barely readable. "zuki zuki" is at least framed as to be readable over the distracting background. It looks and feels like they didn't know what to do with my work, which is insulting to say the least.
It's just really upsetting to see my heart's work treated this way. I wish it were possible to revoke my associations with this publication - except not, because really I'm honored to be featured next to such good writers - but the design is shameful. This experience will make me think pretty hard about submitting anything for publication in an "arts magazine" again.
EDIT to include the poems that made it in. Some of you helped me edit them back in October; thanks so much for your support!
April 28th, 2009
My seraphins are here!
These are the light horn ones, and they are awesome. The bone pair broke in transit, but a replacement pair is on its way. Yay Body Art Forms!
These fuckers were expensive, but they're definitely gorgeous.
Also pictured: 16g faux-pal "plugs". They're just like regular posts, only they're a little longer and backed with an o-ring. I slept in them with no problems.
Frontal pictures forthcoming when it's not hot as balls and I don't look like (quite so much) ass.
April 22nd, 2009
Adventures in Aaron pt. 2: Aaron discovers the gap between his thighs.
I laughed for a good minute before explaining it to him.
Also, a snippet of online Aaron:
12:55:07 AM Aaron: i am so thirsty recently
12:55:38 AM Aaron: i have drinked a sprite each of the past two nights, and i want to drink another one tonight
12:55:59 AM Tenshi: you can drink sprites
12:56:18 AM Aaron: i just haven't drinken sprites for like a month
12:56:26 AM Aaron: and then all of the sudden this week i want to drink lots of sprites
That one was deliberate on his part, but still, he's special.
Also also, oh man, I ordered two pairs of Tawapa seraphins today, plus those little faux-opal "plugs" (are they really plugs at 16g?) for my secondaries. Hopefully they will arrive this weekend and I can be all prettied up for King and Queen's. :3
I'm really thinking hard about stretching up to 12g, since 12g seems to really be the "intro" size where you can get all sorts of shapes and materials. On the other hand, I have to remember that once the healing process is over, I'm going to want to wear normal earrings, so I don't want to stretch to the point where the small wires look funny in obviously larger holes. Hopefully my 14g seraphins will satisfy me size-wise.
April 17th, 2009
Spent my night updating the Mac Users' Resource Megapost after a run-in with a switcher on 
macintosh. It's chock-full of new goodness: more essential apps, more of my favorite freeware, a new shareware section, best places to search for new software, and an explanation of user agent spoofing for niche browsers. All that, plus outlines and anchor links! Crazy! Incidentally, I hope anyone is finding this thing useful. Let me know when there's something you'd like me to add!
It's been three weeks-ish since I gauged all my ear piercings to 16g, so tonight the primaries being their journey to 14g. Righty is A-OK so far, but Primary "Left-Ear" Lobe, as I have decided she will be called, is biiiitching. This is why 1. crooked gun piercings suck and 2. I shouldn't have bought curved barbells, much less these twisty ones, for gauging purposes. I'm hoping to be all healed by graduation, though, so if things go well I may buy the lobe ladies new jewelry for the occasion. The secondaries are being perfect angels these days; I haven't tried taking out their barbells, yet, but I'm thinking I'll change them as soon as Lefty here calms down. Wore regular earrings in the primaries to a fucking useless ceremony on Tuesday and had no problems at all, woohoo!
Tomorrow's seminar is being given by a guy from Glaxo Kline-Smith. Do I dress conservatively and try to make contact, or do I wear sparkly blue-purple eye shadow in honor of Whole Week O' Gay? Who knows, maybe it will match the blue balls (lol) on the 14g barbells... maybe I should have gone with purple after all...
April 15th, 2009
Dinnertime conversation with Aaron.