Random ramblings (original) (raw)
| Date: | 2010-07-01 09:45 |
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| Subject: | I survived |
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| Mood: |  accomplished |
I'm now a diploma carrying graduate of ITT-Technical Institute, BS in Electronics, Communications, Engineering and Technology (BSECET) Highest Honors, Perfect Attendance GPA=3.99
i Rocked it, and my beloveds were there to see me walk! what a long strange trip it has been. Now finding a Job..... *shrug*
Acceptance Letter to Colorado Technical University for t Fall, double degree, Masters of electrical engineering and Masters of computer engineering. no pressure tho *headdesk*
*smoochies!*
-Erika
We Love you Lady and are glad you stuck around another Year!
Hugz you!
-Erika
I will be trying to move the last of the crap from the condo this weekend and could use some assistance and companionship. After 3 on Saturday and unsure timing on Sunday. Mostly in the Garage. sorting and loading the trailer. I really don't want to be buried in all of my stuff in my former house by myself. Help please? I can be contacted here or via phone or facebook.
feeling stressed and overwhelmed does not make for efficient moving.
-Erika
| Date: | 2009-05-19 07:08 |
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| Subject: | YO! |
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Just so all of you don't think I'm inactive. Although I post mostly on facebook, I check here Daily.
-Erika
I need to write about fear.
I feel as if an enormous weight has been lifted and I need to share.
For 34 years I lived in fear of the person I am inside and what would happen if I let her out. I spent a lot of my life hiding who I am from everyone including myself. I deluded myself into thinking I could have the North Carolina version of the "American Dream", and in the process I damn near ruined the lives of both myself and my former spouse. It took a lightning strike to break me out of my fantasy and realize that life is too short to hide from yourself. Fear kept me from speaking up and speaking out. I took baby steps but not enough. I finally met someone who understood and helped me be comfortable enough with myself to help me begin to deal with and overcome some of my fear. Her love and support unlocked doors one at a time and I began to emerge fragile and naive from my cocoon. She supported me when I experimented with Herbal hormones. She supported me when I decided to start seeking the right doctor, she helped me deal with the rejection I felt and the fear I had when the red-tape became seemingly insurmountable. She supported me in my quest for knowledge and when I went outside of normal channels for my hormone therapy. She trusts me and I hope to never give her pause. Together we began to move forward taking down obstacles one by one, and sailing smoothly through the red-tape miasma. The process began to move quicker than I thought, the changes were very noticeable, and I began outing myself often. Eventually I determined, come what may....NO MORE HIDING! It has been the hardest mantra to follow yet, as I still have the fear, but it is being tempered by determination. For all the months I have tried and failed or been rescheduled or one thing and another, Today I finally faced one of my biggest Fears. My fear was that when at long last, counselors paperwork (an enormous milestone itself) in hand I finally met with the doctor who will walk this journey with me. I knew she would be angry and recriminatory for the methods I felt forced to employ to make it this far, I was steeling myself for the pain and anguish of being rejected outright and having to start all over. This fear was so debilitating that many areas of my life, including my relationship with my spouse were showing signs of serious wear.
I could not have been more wrong.
I was met with smiles and humor and understanding and praise, confirmation, acceptance and good advice. It felt like a large portion of the fear monster dissipated and I could open my wings. Flying is still a frightening thought, but to know that the wings are there, and they work is almost as heady.
I have spent too much of my life living in fear, and it is starting to end. It cannot be battled, only soothed away. I want to add courage to my list of many skills.
I am not crazy, I am a woman and I am very scared. I vow this will not beat me, and I will be a good role model for my daughter that having fear is OK, as long as it does not rule you.
I am not crazy, I am a woman and I am scared. Frightened tho I may be I will not cow to fear, I will channel my fear into creativity, and I will proclaim to the world that "This bitch is not going down without fight!!!!"
Thank you all for your time an attention.
-Erika V.
***Not cut for others convenience, not hidden and made private, not Hiding anymore.***
| Date: | 2009-04-03 14:50 |
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| Subject: | Recommendation |
| Security: | Public |
| Mood: | accomplished |
Greetings,
My name is Bob Daly I am the Sr. Engineer and also a Partner in the company of Gas and Oil Technologies and Services, LLC. Our company develops and prototypes sensor arrays and control systems for the oil and natural gas industry. Over the last few years we have developed and patented proprietary methods for taking and processing measurements in hostile environments and relaying the acquired data to systems that can then interface with a variety of other equipment. This communication may be either wired or wireless as dictated by the needs of our client. Prior to the recent economic downturn we found ourselves in the position of needing an in-house electronics engineer with prototyping skills and the ability to think outside of the box.
This position would be primarily involved with prototyping and integrating our control system, developing a viable and ruggedized photo-voltaic system to operate the equipment, researching and specifying components and existing equipment to optimize production cost, fabricating and machining tools and parts as necessary, and maintaining the communications and information systems infrastructure of the units in the field and our headquarters. Additionally, this person would be responsible for programming and modifying existing software and firmware using standard and proprietary languages, as well as traveling to the client’s field locations, assuring smooth integration with their existing data acquisition and control equipment.
Our company conducted extensive interviews to find the best candidate for this position, and we decided to hire Ms. Erika Valentine as our Electronics and Automations Engineer. We were impressed with her credentials, portfolio, and exemplary educational performance. We were also pleased with how she presented herself during the interview process. While she had no previous experience in the oil and gas industry, her eagerness to learn and ability to quickly synthesize concepts and information made her an asset almost immediately. In the course of streamlining the cost and work efficiency of our office she immediately identified and corrected issues with our existing network and data infrastructure. Her drive to develop new skills led her to work closely with our machinist to understand the operation and safety procedures for the equipment in our shop and quickly developed proficiency. As a small organization we depend upon our employees to be extremely flexible in thought and action. Ms. Valentine has taken to tasks assigned with enthusiasm, unique perspective, and determination. What she does not know about an issue she works hard to learn.
In the current financial climate and the state of our industry it has become necessary to release all of our most treasured employees. It is with a great sense of loss that we must release Ms. Valentine to pursue her career elsewhere. I would like to highly recommend Erika to anyone in need of a technically savvy engineer, with a great attitude, and an ability to work well with others.
Sincerely,
Bob Daly
Sr.Engineer/Partner
Just had THE meeting. The one where the owners sit down and say hey, the investors want to cut their losses, the burn rate is too high, there were too many setbacks, the economy sucks, there is no credit, all our capitol generating investments went south and we have about one month of operating capitol left. They tried, I know they tried, This was my one egg and my only basket. Now I'm feeling a bit shell shocked.
But man what a Ride!
I'm really really scared.
I just started Transition, and they are all so supportive here.
6'6" GWF seeks Engineering Position for long term commitment, Must be non-smoker with open mind and deep pockets. Pets and kids OK.
AAARRRGGGHHH!!!!
-Erika
Erika used her lunch break to eat the last of last-night's spider rolls, a salad with prosciutto and fill out the Colorado name change petition....
ok so I mixed for Voltaire at OPUS!, and alot of you were there.
I just can't eem to get this one out of my head, It rocks.....
Death Death (Devil Devil Evil Evil Songs) Lyrics
Artist(Band):Voltaire
My granny while on her death bed
She turned and said to me
"Why must you view life so morbidly
I tried to teach you right
But somewhere I went wrong
'Cuz you sang those
Death death devil devil evil evil songs"
When six pallbearers put her down
And laid her body in the ground
My eyes were wet
My face was very long
The pastor said "son here you are
Won't you please take this guitar
Sing dearly departed Granny one last song"
And I sang death death
devil devil devil devil
evil evil evil evil songs
Hell you know that's how I get along
The world is full of tragedies
So how can it be wrong?
Singing death death death death
Devil devil evil evil songs
Well I was shopping at Hot Topic
And I was walking out the door
When two dumb jocks came up to me
They said "Hey fag it ain't Halloween"
And they kicked my lipstick to the floor
And I sang death death
devil devil devil devil
evil evil evil evil songs
Hell you know that's how I get along
The world is full of idiots
So how can it be wrong?
Singing death death death death
Devil devil evil evil songs
Well I went down to church on Sunday
I sat up front in a pew
The priest said "Jesus and Mary too
Son what the devils got into you?
Get up and sing a hymn or two"
And I sang death death
devil devil devil devil
evil evil evil evil songs
And you know that's how I get along
The world's full of hypocrisies
So how can it be wrong?
Singing death death death death
Devil devil evil evil songs
I was invited to the White House
The president pulled me aside
He said "Son sing us a song of peace
For those evil doers in the Middle East"
I rolled my eyes and kicked this rhyme
And I sang death death
devil devil devil devil
evil evil evil evil songs
And you know that's how I get along
The world's full of W's
So how can it be wrong?
Singing death death death death
Devil devil evil evil songs
Well then I died and went to Hell
I could tell right away by the awful smell
That this was clearly not the pearly gates
The devil said "come here young man
My wife and I are your biggest fans"
So naturally I felt I had it made
Then he reached into an iron
And he picked a tool that he felt was best
Then he jabbed me in the shlong
With a pitchfork that had sharpened prongs
He turned to me and winked and sang this song
And I sang death death
devil devil devil devil
evil evil evil evil songs
Yeah I know that's how you got along
I find your song hilarious
But now your soul's precarious
Singing your death death death death
Devil devil evil evil songs
I'm just kidding kid
Welcome to Hell
Enjoy the buffet
Death death
devil devil devil devil
evil evil evil evil songs
And you know that's how we got along
The world is full of sinners
So how can it be wrong?
Singing death death death death
Devil devil evil evil songs
And so does This one.....
Goodnight, Demon Slayer Lyrics
Artist(Band):Voltaire
There’s a monster that lives ‘neath your bed
Oh for crying out loud it’s a futon on the floor
He must be flat as a board
There’s a creature that lurks behind the door
Though I’ve checked there 15 times
When I leave then he arrives
Every night
Tell the monster that lives ‘neath your bed
To go somewhere else instead
Or you’ll kick him in the head
Tell the creature that lurks behind the door
If he knows what’s good he won’t come here no more
Cause you’ll kick in his butt at the count of four
Goodnight demon slayer, goodnight
Now it's time to close your tired eyes
There are devils to slay and dragons to ride
If they see you coming, hell they better hide
Goodnight, goodnight, goodnight
Goodnight my little slayer goodnight
Tell the monster that eats children, that you taste bad
And you’re sure you’d be the worst he’s ever had
If he eats you, don’t you fret, just cut him open with an axe
Don’t regret it, he deserved it, he’s a cad
Tell the harpies that land on your bed post
That at the count of five you’ll roast them alive
Tell the devil it's time you gave him his due
He should go back to hell, he should shake in his shoes
Cause the mightiest, scariest, creature is you
Goodnight demon slayer, goodnight
Now it's time to close your tired eyes
There's devils to slay and dragons to ride
If they see you coming, hell they better hide
Goodnight, goodnight, goodnight
Goodnight my little slayer goodnight
I won’t tell you, there’s nothing ‘neath your bed
I won’t sell you, that it’s all in your head
This world of ours is not as it seems
The monsters are real but they're not in your dreams
Learn what you can from the beasts you defeat,
you’ll need it for some of the people you meet
Goodnight demon slayer, goodnight
Now its time to close your tired eyes
There are devils to slay and dragons to ride
If they see you coming, hell they better hide
Goodnight, goodnight, goodnight
Goodnight my little slayer goodnight
Goodnight, goodnight, goodnight
Goodnight
I've joined facebook, but I'm not leaving LJ.
although my mosting here may be a tad more sporadic than even my norm.
:)
-E
Well due to my new love interest being on facebook, and most of my LJ friends migrating there, I am headed that way too. If you wanna be friended there let me know.
:)
-E
| Date: | 2009-01-22 11:52 |
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Your result for The Chakra Test...
The Sensuous One
You have scored 100% Desire - Your dominant Chakra is the "Sacral (Spleen) or Orange Chakra"
The "Sacral (Spleen) or Orange Chakra" is where energy for one's sexuality and feelings originates from. It is located at the spleen (and genitals). This is the chakra which is most developed in you at this time.
The Sacral chakra is about feeling and sexuality. When it is open your feelings flow freely, and are expressed without you being over-emotional. You are open to intimacy and you can be passionate and lively. You have no problems dealing with your sexuality.
Depending on your percentage score, there is always more room for development. When this chakra is under-active you may become stiff and unemotional. You may even develop a poker-like face, as a defence mechanism, to stop others from knowing what you are feeling. If the chakra becomes over-active, you may become overly, emotionally attached to people and sexually active.
What is most important is to find balance amongst all 7 chakras. Have a look at what percentages you scored on the others and work to increase their power and balance with each other.
Root Chakra: 65% Passion, Sacral(Spleen) Chakra: 100% Desire, Solar Plexus (Navel) Chakra: 59% Purpose, Heart Chakra: 100% Balance, Throat Chakra: 89% Expression, Third Eye Chakra: 100% Imagination and Crown Chakra: 100% Spirituality!
"Sacral Chakra" Key Words: Feelings, Emotions, Intimacy, Procreation, Polarity, Sensuality, Confidence, Sociability, Freedom, Movement
"Sacral Chakra"Attributes: Color - Orange: Sense - Taste: Element - Water: Seat - Creativity
If you enjoyed this test, I would love the feedback!
Take The Chakra Test at HelloQuizzy
| Date: | 2009-01-21 09:44 |
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| Subject: | amused |
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Your result for The What Gender Are You? Test...
Fairly Feminine
If you're a guy:
You seem to be very in touch with your feminine side. Sissy.
If you're a girl:
You exhibit a lot of girly traits, but not excessively. Good for you.
Note: 0% male means you're all female, 100% male means you're all male. Okcupid won't let me change the name of the variable depending on your score.
Take The What Gender Are You? Test at HelloQuizzy
The Colorado Highway Patrol is cracking down on speeders heading towards the
city of Denver.
For the first offense, they give you two Denver Bronco tickets. If you get
stopped a second time, they make you use them.
Q. What do you call 47 millionaires sitting around a TV watching the Super
Bowl?
A. The Denver Broncos.
Q. What do the Broncos and Billy Graham have in common?
A. They both can make 70,000 people stand up and yell 'Jesus Christ.'
Q. How do you keep a Denver Bronco out of your yard?
A. Put up a goal post.
Q. What's the difference between the Denver broncos and a dollar bill?
A. You can still get four quarters out of a dollar bill.
Q. What do the Broncos and a possum have in common?
A. Both play dead at home and get killed on the road!
Disclaimer:
all this was received in an e-mail. Also I have no Football interest what so ever. Thirdly I've had several personal dealings with Mike S. and most of the Denver Broncos, all but abut three of them were total assholes. Therefore I laughed ALOT!
-E
Dear Santa...
Dear Santa,
This year I've been busy!
Last Monday I gave 
savannah_garden a life-saving blood transfusion
(50 points). Last Tuesday I didn't flush (-1 points). Last Sunday I donated bone marrow to rhettsmom in a life-saving procedure (300 points). In August I turned destinnevaeh in for littering (3 points). Last month I bought porn for caernsmith (-10 points).
Overall, I've been nice
(342 points). For Christmas I deserve a red Radio-Flyer wagon!
Sincerely,
alias_treefrog
Your result for If Lovin' Were Cookin', You'd Be:...
Stir Frying
6 Heat, 0 Speed and 9 Complexity!
Hot, fast, and complex, you are Stir Frying. With the confidence of an Iron Chef, you deftly flip us, toss us around, and we're cooked before we know it, gasping for more. Perfection was never achieved so quickly. Seconds, anyone?!
Take If Lovin' Were Cookin', You'd Be: at HelloQuizzy
Your result for The Intellectual Sexiness Test...
Intellectual Inferno
You have an intellectual sexiness factor of 90!
Who am I to give you advice? You already know everything you need to know, and if there's something you don't know, you're eager to check it out. You are among the few special minds in the world that are truly free, totally creative, and absolutely sexy.
The downside is, it's hard to find partners who can keep up with your quick, vigorously sexy mind. You often find yourself bored with anything less than exciting sex, and only those who equal your intellect, your openess, and your creativity can provide that excitment. You're an avid reader, a deep thinking, and a sexually liberated person. You enjoy learning for its own sake just as much as you enjoy sex for pleasure's own sake.
Your partner, if he or she is able to keep up with you, is extremely lucky to have you.
Take The Intellectual Sexiness Test at HelloQuizzy
Your result for The Kinky Test...
SUPER FREAK!
You scored 126 Sexuality!
SUPER FREAK ALERT! You da BOMB!
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Your result for CARTOONS OF THE 80'S QUIZ...
80's Cartoon Super Ninja!
You scored 37 points on Knowledge out of 43 possible. Outstanding!
Congratulations--this is the highest score possible! You must have been seriously obcessed with 80's cartoons...You got so many right, you could've made a killing if you'd bet on your result!
(If you'd like to see the answers to the questions, I have made a journal post on my profile.)
Take CARTOONS OF THE 80'S QUIZ at HelloQuizzy