Piove Sol Oceano (original) (raw)

satc	[30 May 2008\|02:59am]
[ mood \| tearful ] Im 21, I guess you can say ive officially started my life.... and quite frankly , ive never been so terrorfied. I feel like i need to have everything figured out. All the time , but my own self is screaming inside me "Just live your life" why cant i ever just relax and take whatever comes to me. I ALWAYS have to try to make everything better or enhance it in some way.....The worst part is....... I carry this terrible trait into my relationships.....And the weirdest part.. IVe been in love two times, and once not knowing it... Im so in a rush to be in love with someone, it flyie right past me and i cant even grab on to it..... I dont know whats going on with me... Tomorrow, im going to just sit in Central PArk and do everything i can to not think....WHen did i stop loving myself entirely?.....Whats going on with me...Im writing in my highschool journal....Something isnt right......here I am, but im lost......-Antny
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[30 May 2008|02:59am]

[ mood | tearful ] Im 21, I guess you can say ive officially started my life.... and quite frankly , ive never been so terrorfied. I feel like i need to have everything figured out. All the time , but my own self is screaming inside me "Just live your life" why cant i ever just relax and take whatever comes to me. I ALWAYS have to try to make everything better or enhance it in some way.....The worst part is....... I carry this terrible trait into my relationships.....And the weirdest part.. IVe been in love two times, and once not knowing it... Im so in a rush to be in love with someone, it flyie right past me and i cant even grab on to it..... I dont know whats going on with me... Tomorrow, im going to just sit in Central PArk and do everything i can to not think....WHen did i stop loving myself entirely?.....Whats going on with me...Im writing in my highschool journal....Something isnt right......here I am, but im lost......-Antny

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Just for old time sake	[24 Apr 2007\|11:12pm]
HI!..So i havent written in this for years... hell my user picture is from my junior year in high school.....Just stopping by....its weird. im about to turn twenty.. and its been an amazing 20 years.<3
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Stresseded	[29 Nov 2005\|11:29am]
I simply do not know what to do. For months livejournal has been a last resort for me. But i just dont know in this situation. I need a new car yes i know im sure youre saying "omg he so does not need a new car" but for this time its real.. going to miami as much as i do for rehearsal with braddock is beating my car down. So with that i understood tat i need to get a new car because thats becomming a new priority with my responsibilities. So0o0o my point/ problem is. if i get a car i may never be able to march tour. And yes that may be the smart decision but do i always need to do the smarter thing?. Im so short money now Icant take it. Christmas kiskced me in the ass. I need a sponser, anyone? im cute :) ;) so . . . i dont know what to do. oy... so many things to do. .Im just stressed that it . p.s. theres no star on the top of my tree and im really mad about tht. well, im off to work... then to a practice my guards having that i dont even know about... go figure.. maybe to look at a car... < :( leave love.
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Stresseded

[29 Nov 2005|11:29am]

I simply do not know what to do. For months livejournal has been a last resort for me. But i just dont know in this situation. I need a new car yes i know im sure youre saying "omg he so does not need a new car" but for this time its real.. going to miami as much as i do for rehearsal with braddock is beating my car down. So with that i understood tat i need to get a new car because thats becomming a new priority with my responsibilities. So0o0o my point/ problem is. if i get a car i may never be able to march tour. And yes that may be the smart decision but do i always need to do the smarter thing?. Im so short money now Icant take it. Christmas kiskced me in the ass. I need a sponser, anyone? im cute :) ;) so . . . i dont know what to do. oy... so many things to do. .Im just stressed that it . p.s. theres no star on the top of my tree and im really mad about tht. well, im off to work... then to a practice my guards having that i dont even know about... go figure.. maybe to look at a car... < :( leave love.

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	[10 Oct 2005\|11:59pm]
So yea , this isnt going to last long i can already fore see it comming,,,,, i hate it...alot.
Aiutilo

	[20 Sep 2005\|10:39pm]
Well, im really upset my Brother is moveing back, but what can i do .. nothing its really shitty , loosing like alllll my privacy.... it really sucks i want to leave,
Aiutilo

	[16 Sep 2005\|11:04pm]
Braddock auditions on sunday .......ommmggggg thank you for the luck :):):)x0xoAnty
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Tonite i cried	[15 Sep 2005\|12:08am]
I miss My Group, and all my friends i miss our huge parties... If you were ever part of our group, please let me know when youre comming home if youre away... i dont want to grow up anymore.
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	[20 Jun 2005\|11:55pm]
Well today either way i turn is the first step to the rest of my life i spent 160 on a semester at dance school. and i went to colege for the 1st day. kinda here i go........ here i go *It may be just a dream but if you watch me im going to make a dream come true
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	[26 May 2005\|10:35am]
Well, i grauated high school, the ceremony was niiice and short if feels cool walking across that stage esp when the band goes crazy. Project graduation was tooo0o00o0o0ns of fun the things we did and happened-Ate alot-Nattie got stuck to kellys velcro suite i love ya nat tok 45 mins to get her out!-Won 100$ to the mall-nattie scared shit outa people by popping balloons! hahahahahajust alot of fun im glad we all went and stayed till 320 :) x0xo i love you all!
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[26 May 2005|10:35am]

Well, i grauated high school, the ceremony was niiice and short if feels cool walking across that stage esp when the band goes crazy. Project graduation was tooo0o00o0o0ns of fun the things we did and happened-Ate alot-Nattie got stuck to kellys velcro suite i love ya nat tok 45 mins to get her out!-Won 100$ to the mall-nattie scared shit outa people by popping balloons! hahahahahajust alot of fun im glad we all went and stayed till 320 :) x0xo i love you all!

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	[24 May 2005\|10:08pm]
if you have my sfwga dvd from last year please let me know cuz im really upset that i dont have it.
Aiutilo

	[21 May 2005\|10:20pm]
The best 18th birthday, ever . Thank you for making it that way i love you guys well, girls
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	[21 May 2005\|12:38am]
My 18th has been amazing so far from grad practice to dinner at rainforest where anj beat people with one of her 3 b day gifts. to pleasure island all the way till here every step of the way so far has been awesome and tommorrow is going to be so great and on the cash 3 5-2-0 came out and it just so happenes thats what my dad played for me and i won 300 $ how fucking awesome is that?! ive been getting so many fucking awesome gifts ive gotten 19 voice mails 56 text messages so many wishes and messages i feel loved , thank you every who made my 18th so perfect! gnite and i love ya!!x0xo-ant
Aiutilo

[21 May 2005|12:38am]

My 18th has been amazing so far from grad practice to dinner at rainforest where anj beat people with one of her 3 b day gifts. to pleasure island all the way till here every step of the way so far has been awesome and tommorrow is going to be so great and on the cash 3 5-2-0 came out and it just so happenes thats what my dad played for me and i won 300 $ how fucking awesome is that?! ive been getting so many fucking awesome gifts ive gotten 19 voice mails 56 text messages so many wishes and messages i feel loved , thank you every who made my 18th so perfect! gnite and i love ya!!x0xo-ant

Aiutilo

	[19 May 2005\|07:00pm]
If you just called me and sang happy birthday to me thank you so much !! you lit me up!! i love you guys!!!!! x0xo-ant
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	[14 May 2005\|05:53pm]
last night was the awards banquet i got so many things ill cherish forever!!!-Well miss you poster-guard picture framed-guard portrait of me-gilmore award-senior award-memory book of mellos-2005 bear and flower-mrs haney packet-drum major whistle-fave piano song on cd from an amazing girl-my spanish fantasy sash and a million memories......thank you guys so much! ill never forget any of you, i love you all so much!!!!!! i wish you the best of luck!x0xo -ant
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[14 May 2005|05:53pm]

last night was the awards banquet i got so many things ill cherish forever!!!-Well miss you poster-guard picture framed-guard portrait of me-gilmore award-senior award-memory book of mellos-2005 bear and flower-mrs haney packet-drum major whistle-fave piano song on cd from an amazing girl-my spanish fantasy sash and a million memories......thank you guys so much! ill never forget any of you, i love you all so much!!!!!! i wish you the best of luck!x0xo -ant

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	[10 May 2005\|11:04pm]
well, its done..... i dont know how to feel about it...BAnd is where all my memories are based from...so many people im going to miss.... i dont even know what to say, the concert tonite was ok,,,,,, whatever.. Sigh when they were playing robin hood i was gettin watery.. all i could see was like images of my past... i love you guys so much....ill never forget the ones that give me this feeling...i dont think i can even say n e thing at the banquet on friday because i wont be able to say it, soi just might write a letter or something.. itll be something defferent... well Cx0xoanty
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[10 May 2005|11:04pm]

well, its done..... i dont know how to feel about it...BAnd is where all my memories are based from...so many people im going to miss.... i dont even know what to say, the concert tonite was ok,,,,,, whatever.. Sigh when they were playing robin hood i was gettin watery.. all i could see was like images of my past... i love you guys so much....ill never forget the ones that give me this feeling...i dont think i can even say n e thing at the banquet on friday because i wont be able to say it, soi just might write a letter or something.. itll be something defferent... well Cx0xoanty

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	[06 May 2005\|02:50pm]
i just finished high school..................i love you guys...... you showed me you care...... ill never forget my last day of school now...
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