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i did pretty good

we cleaned up all of the stuff in my basement and there was alot of work to be done and were not even half way done :)
my mom took me to starbucks tho =/
i onyl had a few sips of my caramel frappucino before i flushed it down the toilet =]
ive been living on sugarless mints all day

but my mom ordered chineese
but since she eats so fast ill prob be able to get away with a few bites and then say im stuffed then put it in the fridge and throw it away much later =]
i might have to purge but i really wanna start to leave my bulimic days behind me.....ashleigh told me that i had great teeth the other day and i wanna keep them like that =]
god i wish i still had my scales

ive decided that i dont wanna screw up my system and im only gunna take half of a laxitive every day for a week then take a week off; then a week on; then a week off........you get the picture

i wanna be down to 179 by NYEve cuz im going to lex's party and i think she has a scale in her bathroom that i could use
my mom is going to be out of the house tmw and tuesday so i could prob get my fasting done properly
plus ill be cleaning like woah so 2lbs is no biggie for 2 days =]
gur
ap bio hw time =[=[=[

stay skinny and think think girls =]

so we took all of the carpet out of my basement

all 940 square feet of it
im exausted but i know i burned some good calories there
but my mom forced me to eat dinner
and it was mac and cheese and fried fish :(
but then we went back to work so i think i burned most of it off
plus i purged a little bit even though i promised myself that i wouldnt purge for the next 2 weeks =/
oh well at least i didnt snack on anything
and i did alot of work in that basement
except i dont know how much i burned because my mom threw out my scales, i had 4 of them, and one of them tells you approx how much fat cals youve burned since your last weigh in.
ugh im really mad about that
but since shes telling me that i might not be able to go to the city with mike for his birthday i can prob save all of that money and get a new scale......

so while we were working i looked down and my theighs looks really small and it made me happy
i cant wait for my mom to go back to work and to stop harassing me to eat
since i suspect my dad is anorexic he wont give a damn if i never eat :)

http://myaddiction-is-thecure.piczo.com/

my friend just started it
its for cutters, ana/mia, smokers, drinkers, and sex addicts....spread the word :)

Hey im samantha mischelle...known as sam :)
im 15...about to turn 16
im 5'8
and 185 fucking pounds

i was bulimic for 2 yrs and i lost 75 pounds give or take
then i stopped watching my weight so much and i gained it all back in a year

my sweet sixteen is coming up and my mom has been nonstop bitching about my weight
ive decided how im going to proceed about this
im going to eat on M and F and purge all of those meals [no breakfast; small lunch and dinner]
Tu,Wed,Thur,Sat,Sun- strictly water and tea

but i kinda failed when it cam to desert today [and fucki was doing so good with breakfast and dinner]
so i decided im not gunna start my schedule for about a week
im just gunna fast until next friday
:)

CW 185 =[
GW by January 30 160
GW by Feb 21[my bday and sweet sixteen] 135
GW by March 30 125
Final GW 105 =]

i wanna be so skinny that my family is begging me to gain weight
but i wont do it
i wanna be a twig

if your new please tell your friends to join, and post an entry about yoursself :)

merry xmas everyone!

Hi Everyone!

my names Claire im 18, and ive decided to start this community to provide help and support for people with eating disorders. Please introduce yourself when you first join and please feel free to tell friends (who you know arent trolls) because we could do with some other members.

So i have Anorexia Nervosa. And have had it for 2 years.So here are my stats:

H- 5'9
CW- 115
LW- 104
HW-138

I dont have any target weights yet, and have decided to come up with them on new years day. Up untill then i want to basically eat as little as possible...

so i look forward to see some new members (hopefully!)

stay strong, be beautiful
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