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Hmm, lets see | [20 Jul 2005|12:36pm] |
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[21 Jan 2005|07:05pm] | |
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Well, I don't know how to really start this. But I've just joined. My name is Stephanie, I'm 13-years-old and I live in England.Basically, I think i'm starting to get an eating disorder. I know you're probably all thinking "If you really did, you wouldn't know" but I don't know for sure, but I think I do.I don't think I'm uberly skinny or like, stick-thin, but I'm 5'5" and weight 120lbs, which I guess is kind of average. It dosen't have to do with my weight, it has to do with my eating habits.I don't eat breakfast, and for lunch I don't have a proper one. My lunch is normally a drink and half a packet or crisps OR a muffin. For dinner, I don't eat too much.Basically, in the past few days I read this poster about Anorexia...and I read the "at risk" signs and I noticed I may have alot of them. I constantly perceive myself as fat and I skip meals alot, to name a few.but anyways, after noticing that, I've been trying to stop. So I try and eat my sandwiches, and they either makes me gag and if I manage to force it back down I end up throwing it all back up again soon after. If I ever see myself where I can't see my ribs, I think I'm fat....so I skip meals. If I eat too much, I feel guilty and then either skip meals or make myself throw it back up again. I just don't know what to do anymore. I'm afraid I'll start to faint in front of my parents or at school. I want to deal with this myself, I don't want my family to know. Because then they'll be watching everything I do and nosing around in my life too much.Anything to help will be appreciated. | |
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[18 Jan 2005|09:19am] | |
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Hey everyone, im a bit new to LJ and still getting the hang of posting and so on, ive felt a bit alone lately because i didnt think anyone went thro what i went thro. i cut my wrists but not with the intention of killing myself. i do it as stress relief and somehow it actually works, mind you, some of my close friends got really upset when they found out and made me stop it. now i dont cut my wrists, but i cant seem to relieve myself of stress anymore. ive tried other ways to hurt myself without leaving scars but then i have unexplained bruises n so on... recently i discovered vomiting as some form of stress relief, and right now i can blame this sinus infection i have, but people always seem to know theres something wrong with me. i think i have issues. i dont really know why im so sad on the inside, or why i mask it with my happy attitude. all i know is that talking about it makes me feel better and i cant do that with my friends or they freak out. Im Kate, im almost 16, living in south australia, i have good friends but im very insecure. Im hoping that talking about this stuff and getting feedback can help me stop hurting myself. Right now my biggest issue is the vomiting, my throat is always sore and im finding it hard to keep anything down. its not even intentional anymore. i find myself not eating for days on end simply because i dont want to vomit. i also play basketball 3 or 4 times a week and im afraid ill pass out at training and people will find out what ive been doing to myself. they wont understand. no-one ever does. x.kate | |
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BeAutIFully DePRessEd | [27 Dec 2004|02:01pm] |
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[28 Oct 2004|09:31am] | |
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I am Daisy, 13 years old and come from England (yay-fucking-yay ehhh???) Yeah. And I am posting here because, well, I dunno I could go a whole list of whats fucked up about me and my life but what would be the point. I'm not a goth, a poser, a wanabee, an attention seeker or anything else you can throw at me. I'm just a very negative person. This doesn't mean I am depressed all the time (although clinicly I am 0_o) and it doesn't mean all I talk about is death and suicide... It doesn't mean I wear black the whole time and always never speak. Also it doesn't stop me from having any friends, although some have stopped being my friends after I went through a lot, which isn' the most reassuring thing to happen. =( Oh well. Yeah. And by the way, please don't all pity me like *oh it must be so hard etc* unless you are going to give some useful advice as well... ^_+ And yeah I can be such a bitch but I am really very nice... Lol... Thankyou xOh and by the way, if you do want the list I mentioned earlier, so you can help further, just ask!! | |
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