March 2nd, 200410:22 am - Feeling a bit smallAs most of you probably know already, I blew up at an old friend of mine a few days ago and ended the friendship. That still stands and I have no regrets. Why I stayed friends with her in the first place is a mystery. the part that concerns me here are the reactions I got when I blew up. Just so everyone knows, I'm not upset with ANYONE here save maybe myself. And even there only a little bit. I'm just a tad embarassed. Yes, I do realize that I'm cared about. But consider this:When I blew up in my LJ the other day only one person was noticeably concerned about what was wrong. _Row... What's up hun?_One other who didn't know me very well laced into me just a tad. (I did have it coming)_Well that's friendly..._One other asked me to hit the person for her too.The rest? They just wondered if it I was pissed off at them and one other made a point of proving why it couldn't have been her. Ok, like I said before I'm a bit embarassed about this. Why???Like I said. I'm not at all upset here. I'm just having a small chuckle at my own expense...Has my temper really become that legendary? Have I become the Dark Helmet of Nashua? _*Everyone grabs their crotch when I walk into a room?*Has it gotten to the point that a curious bystander looks for my bio in the dictionary... under Rabies?Do people check their body for punctures after hugging me?Has my disposition established me as a sideshow attraction of some sort?"Ladies and Gentlemen! My I direct your attention to the exhibit center on the fairway where you will see some of the great wonders of the world. You'll see the Snakeman, the world's skinniest woman, The amazing Rubber boy and the Horror that IS the only man-eating Transsexual in captivity! She Rants, She screams, She doubles as field artillery!_Maybe I should tone down the Manson-Aura. Whaddya think, hmm?Perhaps I should cultivate some of the more civilised influences I've had in the last few years.Well, that goes without saying actually. But I suppose I should keep a balanced perspective regarding my temper, or distemper, depending on your point of view. After all, if nothing else can be said for my disposition at least my friends seem to be entertained. Well, most of them anyway.Q: Does Natalie have an anger management problem?A: Is Ex-Lax fatal to a politician? Of course she does! I can only hope the majority of you won't hold it against me.Current Mood:weird(8 comments | Leave a comment)From:midnyte_angel Date:March 2nd, 2004 07:32 am (UTC) **(Link)I don't know what happened. I'm not sure I want to, but for people to hold a judgemnet call you made based on personal experience against you, well, they weren't friends to begin with. I hope all works out for the best. <3 ~Jenn~ (Reply) (Thread) From:jamailla Date:March 2nd, 2004 12:48 pm (UTC) (Link)"Have I become the Dark Helmet of Nashua? *Everyone grabs their crotch when I walk into a room?*" I think this only happens if I walk in with a 8' pike.Yes you have a temper but so do alot of people. Hell I'm known at the person that needs anger managment because I slam doors when I get pissed.No your not a freak show exibit. I could point out sooo many other people that are.besides I dont think your the only man-eating transsexual in captivity.;P(Reply) (Thread) From:piper_lightfoot Date:March 2nd, 2004 07:42 pm (UTC) Truth be told.(Link)Hold your temper against you? No.Think you missed the point of my message? perhaps.the intent was to make you laugh hon, I KNOW I havent done anything to anger you that badly, so I was never worried in the first place.As to why more people don't ask you whats up?You do have a tendency to keep it to yourself, untill you decide not to, and we(or me at least)as your friends sometimes feel that if you want us to know, you'll darn well tell us. so we choose not to intrude where we are not asked.You want me to know whats up? let me know. You want me to ask whats up more often, let me know. =)I can't fix it if I don't know its broken.I hope everything works out in this situation for you, and if you need shoulders or support, we're here, we just need to know what in hades you want =)*hugs* (no checking for holes)(Reply) (Thread) From:dwerenat Date:March 2nd, 2004 07:59 pm (UTC) Re: Truth be told.(Link)**considering that I was specific with some, I suppose I should've been specific with you as well. I busted up laughing when I started reading the responses to the entry in question and never for a moment questioned your motives. You've got a point, though. I should be more direct. This entry was originally intended to make people laugh, I was hoping the shared giggle would calm me down a bit. I suppose I need to work on my delivery.(Reply) (Parent) (Thread) From:wickedsilence Date:March 2nd, 2004 09:47 pm (UTC) (Link)*note to self* next time keep smartass comment to self But really, your temper is partially why I read your journal, a lot of people on lj pretty much just whine and wimper; yours actually sounds like its ready to kick the world's ass. I can respect that.(Reply) (Thread) From:dwerenat Date:March 3rd, 2004 06:08 am (UTC) (Link)Note to a good friend: NEVER keep a smartass comment to yourself. I find them to be inspirational at times. Besides, you're 3000 miles away, I'd consider that a moderately safe distance... *G*(Reply) (Parent) (Thread) From:ursa_mater Date:March 3rd, 2004 02:22 pm (UTC) My tiny two cents(Link)Actually, the entertaining part of all this is the obvious intelligence and forsight that the language your "ranting" uses to tell someone to go to hell and swallow it on the way. It takes a very high IQ coupled with a truly deranged mind (Smile) to "Do The Voodoo That You Do So Well". Unlike some of us who would just as soon say "Fuck Off" and follow it with about 3 ft of steel. Nat, you do have style. (Reply) (Thread) From:dwerenat Date:March 3rd, 2004 06:05 pm (UTC) Re: My tiny two cents(Link)Unlike some of us who would just as soon say "Fuck Off" and follow it with about 3 ft of steel. Nat, you do have style. And when style fails I have quite a collection of steel bits meself.(Reply) (Parent) (Thread)
10:22 am - Feeling a bit smallAs most of you probably know already, I blew up at an old friend of mine a few days ago and ended the friendship. That still stands and I have no regrets. Why I stayed friends with her in the first place is a mystery. the part that concerns me here are the reactions I got when I blew up. Just so everyone knows, I'm not upset with ANYONE here save maybe myself. And even there only a little bit. I'm just a tad embarassed. Yes, I do realize that I'm cared about. But consider this:When I blew up in my LJ the other day only one person was noticeably concerned about what was wrong. _Row... What's up hun?_One other who didn't know me very well laced into me just a tad. (I did have it coming)_Well that's friendly..._One other asked me to hit the person for her too.The rest? They just wondered if it I was pissed off at them and one other made a point of proving why it couldn't have been her. Ok, like I said before I'm a bit embarassed about this. Why???Like I said. I'm not at all upset here. I'm just having a small chuckle at my own expense...Has my temper really become that legendary? Have I become the Dark Helmet of Nashua? _*Everyone grabs their crotch when I walk into a room?*Has it gotten to the point that a curious bystander looks for my bio in the dictionary... under Rabies?Do people check their body for punctures after hugging me?Has my disposition established me as a sideshow attraction of some sort?"Ladies and Gentlemen! My I direct your attention to the exhibit center on the fairway where you will see some of the great wonders of the world. You'll see the Snakeman, the world's skinniest woman, The amazing Rubber boy and the Horror that IS the only man-eating Transsexual in captivity! She Rants, She screams, She doubles as field artillery!_Maybe I should tone down the Manson-Aura. Whaddya think, hmm?Perhaps I should cultivate some of the more civilised influences I've had in the last few years.Well, that goes without saying actually. But I suppose I should keep a balanced perspective regarding my temper, or distemper, depending on your point of view. After all, if nothing else can be said for my disposition at least my friends seem to be entertained. Well, most of them anyway.Q: Does Natalie have an anger management problem?A: Is Ex-Lax fatal to a politician? Of course she does! I can only hope the majority of you won't hold it against me.Current Mood: 
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midnyte_angel Date:March 2nd, 2004 07:32 am (UTC) **(Link)I don't know what happened. I'm not sure I want to, but for people to hold a judgemnet call you made based on personal experience against you, well, they weren't friends to begin with. I hope all works out for the best. <3 ~Jenn~ (Reply) (Thread)