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[Dec. 21st, 2007|01:18 pm]Debbie
Previous Entry Flag Next EntryI've just been looking through my friend Charlotte's photos, and I have realised what is missing from my life. Randomness and spontaneity, and doing things just because they're fun. She is much like I used to be, and dresses up just for fun, and is odd just because it's fun to be that way, and does things to get reactions because it's interesting.I have become dull in my old age. When was the last time I dressed up just for the fun of it? I can't remember. And I have lots of silly photos, but I don't show them to anyone. Trying to set up a business and worrying about money has made me more restrained, more aware of what people think of me. You know what? I don't care. I never cared before, I was far more free-spirited, and why should I let the madness of the world become more important than my own madness? Because it is all madness, these rules and regulations and laws that some people created. The 'normal' way to dress and behave. Who is to say they know more than us? They usually don't.Alan is very into dada (if you don't know what that is, I can't explain it, read about it a little), and although I don't love ALL the weirdness that he loves the way he loves it, I love other kinds of weirdness, and I should embrace them more, even if everyone thinks I'm mad, then that's just perfect. Perhaps then I won't feel as creatively blocked either. Who knows. I wanted to do something different next year...I thought perhaps a video project or something, but perhaps this should be my project. I don't mean going out my way to be weird, just being more childlike and doing things just because I enjoy them, which I don't do much anymore, and doing things just because they're new and exciting and fun...all the things I used to do, the way I used to be, but better, because now I know what it's like NOT to be like that, I will enjoy it all the more.Anyone want to play with me?I'm really curious as to people's thoughts on this post. Positive or negative, don't know what the hell I'm talking about, think I'm silly. Give me a quick comment please?(oh, and I passed my Spanish course) :)
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yay for the spanish passingyou should come over (I know it's awkward and no richard makes it harder) and we'll do something fun, promise.I've got it written on a piece of paper here in big letters 'PHONE AMELIA!' but everytime I remember (apart from when I've just gotten up and feel weird cos I haven't eaten) I realise it's about midnight and not a good time to call! I intended to come over more, I just had a mini money-crisis and couldn't spend anything at all so I couldn't get there, but it's a bit better now, so was going to call and ask when I can come and play with you? When is richard not around that you want company? Oh and of course we shall do something fun, spending time with you is always fun! Email me? Being random and fun is brilliant! I'm up for helping lol. Yep, I am a supporter lol.I know how you feel. I get really grumpy because I've got so much uni work to do and no money that I feel like I don't do anything fun anymore. My whole life just seems to be spent reading journals and writing essays. I took some photos the other week but haven't even had a chance to look at them yet! I love doing things spontaneous or just going somewhere different for the day, but it's only when you've got no money that you realise that everything costs money - even if it's just driving/getting the train to see a friend and taking silly photos!Tell me about it! Being broke sucks...after quite a few years, you learn ways to cope with it, but it still stops you doing so many things. I'm lucky that I have Alan to play with, so I don't mind being stuck at home a lot.It's great that you're studying hard, I'm sure it'll be worth it :)I've noticed the same thing this year at uni.We used to sit up all night talking increasing bollocks and drinking wine or steal traffic cones until our living room looked like major construction work was in progress and so many random things.For me this is what university should be like, doing silly things which are not entirely sensible and laughing until you cry and sadly what with honours and our jobs and all we've stopped doing this.One of my resolutions is to try and get back to this before we all leave and have proper jobs and bills to pay and all that.Yeah...I didn't do the whole uni thing, but I think that everyone should do silly things and laugh lots and stay up all night talking as much as possible! Jobs and money are the main things that make people stop doing that stuff, so yes, do it as much as possible before you get bogged down with all that crap!:) x *Throws some snow at you*I complained my christmas preperations were going wrong. I was told to pirate christmas back and bludgeon it until it did my bidding. So yesterday I dressed up all buccaneer-like in floofy shirt and corset, long wig and tricorner hat and made mince pies. Things still went wrong but I cared a lot less and besides which I got great looks off the postman who was very bemused.I did a course on Dada at uni. It was weird and quite cool but their poetry was an unkind thing to inflict on other people. I claimed my end of term project was dictated to me by my toy plush fishy, and was awarded an A.The world is all too often dull and stressful. Playful oddness and random insanity brightens up everyone's day and makes it more interesting - also the one thing capable of cheering me up when I'm being a mopey bint.Go dress up already =)Wooooooooooo! The pirate thing...so cool :DProject dictated by toy plush fishy - LOL! Even cooler!! You have my respect! Haha :DI hope christmas is behaving a bit better now? Or you must bludgeon it more! I understand. I think the trick (I haven't managed it yet) is to get the boring rules sorted and on your side and then have all the fun and weirdness you like. You know how Gilliam said that he'd decided he'd never work for money again? Kinda like that. Once you've got your business set up you can decide the rules. Let's dress up! And I'd love to be involved in any weird projects you like!Count me in on weird projects also! I'm in danger of being reported to the RSPCA for neglecting my inner child of late (though you'd not think so with how I've been acting with Christmas looming ha!)How about you just not think or worry about the business side of your company plan just yet, and come up with some demo reels and examples to use with it instead? Create a web presence? Advertising campaign? Hehe.Hey, you'll be getting your camera soon right? Well wont you need a TON of content like that? And a good mix too, why not have themed parties involving photoshoots? Do group photo's, maybe some weirder ones. Don't you know lots of people who do/did dress up for Larping? How about some sets like that? "Photography from Middle Earth" or dress up as Aliens for "Our vacation on Earth 2008" :)This camera is costing you a lot of money, so I expect to see plenty of pictures from it mister! :DSeriously though, just because it's a business, does it mean it has to be all serious and boring? Leave that to the big stuffy corporations. Concentrate on the fun part for now, save the businessy side of things for a few months, its still going to be there when you're ready to get back to that side of things.Go nuts!you're not silly at all, you're just relaizing you are too focused on now.Abnormality is a requirement for growth. if everyone did the same things and followed the same rules, nothing would ever be created, nothing new would ever happen. It's because of people like us, the creative, the spontaneous, and yes, the crazy, that life continues to florish and grow.As much as the "normal" people would like to deny it, the truth is thats the silly dreamers are the true creators of the world. :)The secret is to not let your pursuit of needs overide the pursuit of desires/wants. Add a little insanity to your life from time to time, always take time to appreciate those things you take for granted.