  June 2, 1999 - Late eveningI don't even know where to begin.Sirius is gone, stormed out in a fury after finding out about my relationship with Severus. Really, I expected it, I had prepared myself for the worst. I knew he wasn't going to like it - how could he, really? I was *his* lover for a year, his best friend since childhood, and he hates Severus with a passion.It still hurts.I'm worried about him, but Merlin knows that my concern is the last thing he cares about right now. I don't know what to do. Part of me wants to give him time to settle down, to accept things, to forgive me... and part wants to grab him and shake him and ask him how he can dare to judge me and my actions, when I'm supposed to unquestioningly accept his. But that would be counterproductive, I know.Well.I saw Hannah, she's looking wonderful as usual. I hope that she gets over her mistrust of Severus and comes HOME. But she has to find her way back to him, I can't push it. Trust must be earned, it cannot be commanded.And, in the meantime, I wonder what is up with our opposition. They have been very quiet since the escape, my encounter with Bellatrix aside. They must be planning something... and whatever it is, I'm sure we aren't going to like it one bit. |
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