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		Yadda Yadda, pregnancy stuff that I'm putting out in public cause I need more feedback than the filter would get. :)First off, more recent fetus-photo...More hereI'm fine. Heartbeat at 155. Referral to pulmonologist, and I called and they squeezed me in for tomorrow morning at 8:30. Which will make me a cranky woman because I'm not a big fan of morning and because it will involve rush hour traffic to get to this place for an 8:30 appointment. But if it means breathing better, so be it. The OB suggested the possibility of supplemental oxygen, but I'm really hoping I don't end up going that route. I'd be fine with nebulizer treatments or a long acting bronchodilator or something (can't do inhaled steroids, I end up with thrush and coughing blood every time I've tried.) We'll see what the respiratory therapist and NP have to say tomorrow. I scheduled the rest of the OB appointments through my estimated due date today. This is overwhelming. And scary. And I feel totally unprepared. And I just hope that I'm good at the forthcoming job. We started a registry this week (someone at Cayne's office asked, which means I assume a shower is in the works somewhere.) No you can't see it yet...it's not done and I'm not happy with it, I need to make more changes first. If you do want to see it leave a comment to that effect and I'll comment back when I'm more settled into what's on it. This is not a request for stuff. This is an "if you wanna look at it you can tell me cause it requires that I disclose my name to you. I do not expect stuff from anyone for this.So, with today's OB appointment, I was cleared for delivery by whoever is on call, rather than whichever MD is on call. What that means is that assuming that everything continues to go smoothly, if it happens that a midwife gets to me first when I'm in labor then a midwife gets to deliver the baby. This is a very good thing. Which brings me to the public-reasoning for this post...we started talking very vaguely about birth plans at today's appointment. And the doctor asked what I wanted...and my answer was "as low intervention as we can." Dr. P is fine with that. I threw out examples like "no continuous fetal monitoring" to which he said "no problem, unless we've had to use Pitocin," and I'm apparently allowed to wander around as much as I want if I'm comfortable, whether or not my water's broken, and use the tub and so on and so forth. But, I'm looking for birth plans. If you've written one when you gave birth (or you've got a partner who has written one) please share it. Links here are fine, e-mail to username at livejournal is fine, and so on. But the more I can read actual real ones that people I like have written the more able I think I'll be to craft my own. Here we go.Tags: baby, body/health, pregnancy

		Hello Friend's List. Things have been a bit icky here lately. While I mostly feel good, my lungs are cranky. Cranky enough that my mother noticed I sounded winded on the phone yesterday and today. I've been feeling less than spectacular breathing-wise, and well, that's kind of an essential task. (Yes puzzld1 I promise I called my doctor.) So I call the OB who said "If you start using your inhaler more than 3 times a day call." And I was silly and forgot to ask what to do besides call. I've had issues with the triage nurses before-they seem to assume all patients are dumb, and this is no exception. I told her that while it wasn't urgent (I wasn't turning blue or anything) I did need a follow up call to find out what to do next-whether they were going to call in a prescription, whether I needed to go see another doctor, and so on. I have my routine appointment on Wednesday anyway, and so I'll mention the lack of a call back then, but more importantly I'll hopefully get some guidance about my lungs. Not breathing well is somewhere between frustrating and scary depending on how I'm feeling. Oh and, my pharmacy has complied with the requirement to phase out CFC based inhalers. Fine. Most of us know the HFA propelled ones don't do the same job. Only problem? My insurance company covers the HFA albuterol as a tier 3 drug, which means they covered about five and a half dollars of it. So I can either pay nearly full price for it at the pharmacy, switch to a totally different rescue inhaler (anyone have experience with Xopenex-that, they'll cover as a tier 1 drug so I only pay $10) or get what the insurance company deems a 90 day supply via mail order for almost as much as the pharmacy. If I used it daily as a maintenance med, I'd do the mail order, but I'm not really using it that way so it doesn't make sense. sigh Usually my insurance isn't awful, but this is annoying me. There was an issue with the dress I ordered for Cayne's holiday party (which is tomorrow night.) I'd put it off for about as long as possible, ordered four dresses in three colors and two sizes, only to discover that when I tried them on both of us preferred the green dress, which I had ordered in one size though I decided that a different size would be more comfortable. So, since I knew I was going to have to do a return anyway, on Saturday morning, I told him to go order the green dress in the size I liked...I went and finished getting dressed. He did it, and we decided to upgrade it to overnight shipping. The dress shipped on Monday morning, we expected it on Tuesday and it didn't show up. Somehow, UPS lost the package. After a circus of phone calls with the catalog I ordered the dress from, who then turned around to try and get UPS to trace the package, they shipped out a new one yesterday and told me they would refund the shipping on the dress, and I'd have the dress today. Which is fine and reasonable. This morning, our UPS guy shows up much earlier than he usually does (he arrived at about 9:20, his normal arrival time is between 2 and 3 in the afternoon.) He delivered two packages...each contained the same green dress. They've arranged for UPS to pick up one of the dresses on Monday, I have a green dress to wear tomorrow night. We've been trying to get the house organized to have in laws here in January, and for the baby stuff. I'm starting to get to a place where it'll be okay to start getting the baby things we need to have to start with, though other things can wait. But it probably does make sense to start acquiring things in January or February rather than feeling overwhelmed in March. Busy weekend planned...tomorrow I go let the vampires take my blood (thyroid panel, CBC, hemoglobin, hematocrit) then breakfast at First Watch (mmmm potatoes) then groceries and lunch and a nap before the party. Sunday we're going to spend the day with friends-the two pregnant people are baking cookies, and the other three (Cayne, Nick and Bob) are going to do "something manly." (Yes, it's been an on and off joke about this division of labor and such.) And notes to various people because finding LJ posts to respond to would drive me crazy...To the person who found out she was pregnant this week-congratulations, I'm so very happy for you.To the person in the UK who is worrying me and who is having great stress in her chosen family-I'm thinking of youTo the person whose pregnancy has reached a point where the first word that comes to mind is "difficult" and the next one is "complicated" I am crossing my fingers that things ease up soon and that the little remaining time is much smoother. And with that, I'm hungry and need something to eat.Tags: body/health, cayne, cooking, everyday life, pregnancy

		still going Amusing Ebay Auction relating to the Transformers movie. Totally work safe. Read the FAQ.In an effort to get a certain zedrikcayne to exercise more, since he won't go to the gym alone even though it's right across the street from his office, and hates the treadmill, we've invested in two Red Octane dance pads and a DDR Game. I've never really played DDR before, though it's a lot of fun, and I can see why he prefers this to other sorts of cardio. So, we've been playing DDR, and he enjoys it because he can beat me at it, though I seem to focus on simply doing better at each song than I've done before, rather than doing better than he does. But, and perhaps those of you who've played more DDR than I have could help me figure out what my problem is. I do poorly some of the time because I keep feeling like I need to bring my feet back to the center all the time, and not stand on the arrow from the previous movement. Other than practice (which I'm getting plenty of) does anyone have a suggestion as to how to break that habit? This week has been a less than stellar ones for reasons not necessary to detail here in a public post. This weekend's plans include a late dinner out at Melting Pot, the new Harry Potter book and possibly an ice cream social at the synagogue we're thinking about joining. I'd like to find somewhere decent to get a pedicure but I'm not sure where to go. Classes end shortly, and I need to decide if/what I'm going to take in the fall semester. Same as it ever was.Tags: body/health, cayne, everyday life, school, ttc

		Is that all there is? I've been in a funk for a couple of weeks. I'm used to this happening in the winter, and letting it pass, but very much not used to it happening in early summer. I'd blame it on my impending birthday but it's been going on too long for me to blame that, and my birthday is only minimally bothersome this year. Someone wished me a Happy Mother's Day recently, when I was in the grocery store, and it crushed me. I could blame that for my funk, but I think it started before then. ( But there's all sorts of other things happening here Collapse )Still for this evening, more homework, supper, bathroom cleaning, dishwasher emptying and I think that's all.Tags: body/health, canada, everyday life, fertility, house, immigration, school, ttc

		Eat Me! So frustrating, lately, trying to figure food out. I started the thyroid meds almost two months ago, and started having blood sugar crashing symptoms, like I did when I first started the metformin and made poor food choices, only I wasn't making the same mistakes I'd made when I first started the metformin, I was eating in a way that had been working for me for months. Patient information for Synthroid says that you may need to adjust upwards the dose of blood sugar controlling meds. No big deal, after some back and forth with the doctor's office, he raised the dose. And I felt fine, for about two weeks. Suddenly, this week, I'm incredibly hungry. I'm eating sensibly, even though Cayne's working late, which, in the past has meant I sometimes get lazy about food. But this week, I'm eating the same things I've been eating for weeks, and I'm ending up hungry and headachey two hours after supper. I had a snack of fruit and cheese, which should have been sufficient, and I'm still hungry and headachey. It's not bored-hungry either, it's genuine hungry, which is so incredibly frustrating. I want to go to bed, but if I don't eat something, I'll wake up shaking with low blood sugar. At least there's orange juice in the house for when that happens.Tags: annoying, body/health, pcos

		Life Keeps Going Cayne moved back into the bedroom. It's interesting to sleep in the same bed again after so many months (really years, probably) of sleeping apart. It's nice, too, mostly. I'm a little warmer, with someone next to me, but it's nice too, for spontaneous kissing and stuff, which wasn't really possible when we were in separate beds. He still makes little gurgly snoring noises sometimes, while he's sleeping with the CPAP, and that's not always easy to sleep through. And it's really annoying when the he/the CPAP exhales really cold air onto my arm at night. But I'll live with that if it means I get to cuddle with him sometimes. I feel like things are a blur of immigration and doctor's appointments lately. I spent a few days trying to get together the information to go to the Clerk of Courts in Clinton County to get the disposition of arrest certificate. Monday is a follow up with the urologist again. I need to reschedule my doctor's appointment for 4/10-they called me today to tell me Dr P won't be in the office that day. We were at the art show on Sunday. Bought two photos, put a deposit on a third, and there's a fourth one I need to buy as soon as we have the money for it in the budget. I nearly had a heart attack today though, when I looked at the checking account, and discovered that there was a $300 hold on the check card from XM Radio. Cayne's XM subscription was about to expire, and I told him to switch the billing to quarterly for a while, because I didn't want to drop that amount of money all at once, even though in the long run we'll pay a little more. I'm just glad that December/January/February are over. Between my accounting error that made things tight, plus major expenses (car repair, registering both cars, and an immigration physical) things were far more squishy than I like. Plus, we paid off a bill in March (they claimed they had to replace the carpet in our old apartment, so I made an arrangement to pay their charge in installments) which puts a little money back into our budget. I can't believe we're getting ready for this weekend already. Lots of plans, too-stuff to do at home, plus a "buy this stuff" party on Saturday morning and a munch on Saturday afternoon. This is our last weekend before Crunch too, which means I want to cram in as much Cayne time as possible, so I did a bunch of usual-weekend-chores yesterday, and I'll do some more tomorrow, I think. I also may go pick up two pairs of knitting needles in sizes I don't own, and some more row and stitch counters, and go to Pier 1 to pick up some other stuff. Can't figure out what to do for Cayne's birthday. Some of his birthday gift arrived today, from Canada. Sadly, it was damaged in transit, so he'll get it when he gets home tonight. I've had odd pain lately. Not odd so much that I haven't experienced it before, but odd in that "it's normal but I haven't had it in a while. My right shoulder, both wrists, and my left shoulder. Not sure that there's anything much to do about it, it is what it is. Probably worth a chiropractor visit soon if I can find one.( and since I chronicle health stuff here anyway Collapse ) Tags: body/health, cayne, crafts, everyday life, fertility, pcos

		A poll, a sigh, a complaint, whatever else. Poll #945178 Can you do this? Open to: All, detailed results viewable to: All. Participants: 48 Do you know how to roll a joint? View Answers Yes 20(41.7%) No 28(58.3%) Do you remember where you learned how to roll a joint View Answers Yes 15(31.9%) No 5(10.6%) I do not have that skill 27(57.4%) Here's a place to share the story of how you learned, if you feel like it. (Or use the comments, of course.) View Answers ( and frustration regarding fertility treatment Collapse )The cat knocked over the lamp last night. I don't know how he did it, and nothing broke, though somehow the shade came off. (I don't know where the finnial is.) What's even more baffling, is that Cayne slept through it. The lamp was on his side of the bed. I woke up when I heard the crash though. Can't kick this headache. Yesterday it felt like a sinus headache, today it feels more like a migraine, but without some of the other migraine stuff (light sensitivity, for example.) A bit bummed cause a friend had to cancel his work-trip to Orlando, so I won't get to see him for dinner this week. Cayne is (and by extention, so am I) stressing a bit over the timeline of immigration stuff. We know we can claim back time that was spent in Canada-I have reciepts from the last two trips we took, which gives us about four weeks of time, but it's much harder, I suppose, to document the time that we spent when we drove up there. Though since we tend to use credit cards when we're there, rather than cash, perhaps that's sufficient documentation. We spent about ten days at the end of 2004, and about a week in August 2004. I'm sure there was other time that Cayne was there that he could claim back.Must go find copies of labwork before endocrinologist appointment on Wednesday. Please hope she looks at my symptoms and numbers and says "let's try something" and not "sorry we can't help you." I would really like to try and treat the seemingly-sluggish thyroid, finally. I've only been asking for years.Tags: body/health, cats, cayne, everyday life, fertility, polls, travel

		In a Cup My life is ridiculous. I cried at Cookie Monster today. (For Muppet fans, it was the song where he talks about the first time he had cookies. And he tells you what his name was before it was Cookie.)I also spent quite a bit of time figuring out how one goes for semen analysis (beyond the obvious basics.) Dr P recommended that zedrikcayne goes for one, just to make sure there are no problems on that end of things. In the discussion I had with Dr P about it, he explained that they used to allow men to give the sample at home, but they were finding that by the time the sample arrived at the hospital, the sample was no longer useful. So Dr P explained, that they now requied men to go to the lab and "give a sample by masturbation" which he accompanied with the hand gesture usually associated with male masturbation. I had to stiffle a giggle at that one. Other than telling me I was smart, referring me to an endocrinologist (I'll make that appointment after I get the results from the bloodwork that he did on Thursday) and telling me to schedule an ultrasound for when I expect to be ovulating, he said if Cayne is all clear, and I'm not pregnant by April, we'll talk about drugs. I have mixed feelings about that, and might make another wide-audience post about that later. I'm feeling very tired, and blah. Cayne is fixing his computer right now, and I should make something to eat, but I have no energy to do that. We'll see what he wants to do when he's finished with the machine.Tags: body/health, emotions, pcos, television, ttcCurrent Location: On the couch

		Core Dump I sort of missed National Coming Out Day. I'm queer. It's not very exciting. What's your secret? I think I have PMS. Which, while it's irritating, is also making me very happy. Salty food cravings, chocolate cravings, serious modiness and extra sweatiness. I also think I ovulated this month. I seem to have had all the right symptoms, including a temperature spike, but I admit, I've been less consistent about taking my temperature in the morning than I have in previous cycles. Most of itis due to not sleeping well -when I don't get a three hour block of sleep, I can't get an accurate temperature, and sometimes, the three hour block involves getting up between five and six in the morning to pee, and that is completely off from when my usual temperature taking time is. Some of it is just not stressing over it. As much as I would like to jump right back in to trying to have a baby, restraint is a good thing here. Making sure the meds are working, figuring out how I feel on the meds, that's important. A few more weeks isn't unreasonable. The meds-I feel good, I had fewer side effects adjusting than I expected, but I'm just not hungry a lot of the time, and it's hard to eat just to take the meds. It doesn't have to be a lot, but it does have to be the right combination of protein/carbs in order to not get sick, and in order to not wake up feeling like I'll faint. I made that error once, fortunately on a weekend when Cayne was here, but I made a food mistake, went and took a nap, and woke up feeling not right, and hollered for Cayne to bring me juice. After which I felt a lot better. It was a scary moment though to wake up disoriented and dizzy like that. I find it very hard to get four doses in a day, but I'm doing the best I can. Cayne's CPAP arrived on Monday. He's spending a few more nights on the futon, to get settled with it. The first night he used it, I kept getting up to check on him. The silence is spooky after two years of snoring. The bed will also probably be very warm with another body in it, too. I am questioning my involvement in something. I'm not sure it's healthy, and sometimes I find it downright energy sucking. entirelysonja arrives Friday night for the weekend. This is very exciting. It's our first baby-free visit in two years. :) We'll spend some time at Disneyworld/Epcot (which is extra cool cause it's the Food and Wine festival) and hang out and enjoy our visit. It's likely to be the last baby free visit for quite a while, again. :) (Baby 2 is due in January, in case I haven't mentioned that.)I'm being asked to participate in something I have strong objections to. I haven't decided how to respond. I haven't decided if the strength of my objections is magnified by the emotional impact PMS tends to have on me, or if they really are that strong, nor have I decided exactly how to respond. I've had this non-productive cough that won't go away. It probably doesn't help that I'm not taking any asthma meds (and have felt fine up until recently.) It doesn't feel like bronchitis, but Cayne suggested that it might be. I may have to go get it checked out if it doesn't go away soon. Stressing over money and car stuff. We've been putting off replacing Cayne's car, but it's coming closer and closer to time. Today we replaced the heater core, which cost us quite a bit-more than I'd have wanted to put into the car at this point. We're trying to put off car buying for at least six more months-a year would be better, because we'd be able to find a 2007 something, off a lease. Mom suggested perhaps talking to their car guy, Mike, who might be able to find us what we're looking for (ideally, a small station wagon type vehicle, if not, something larger than what we've got now) and/or cut us a deal on whatever we do buy. That would involve driving back from up there-potentially fun and with time to visit with friends along the way. New cell phones are on the high priority list of things to do; Cingular is dropping analog coverage and going to all GSM, which means Cayne is having huge gaps in where he has signal. We'll drop Cingular and go all Verizon with a family plan of some sort before the end of this month-Verizon has a plan that covers us in Canada, and Cingular didn't when I last checked. When we get them, I'll pass along new contact info. It's almost half past three. I should go to bed, in order to wake up and take my temperature soon. I just can't seem to shut my brain off.Tags: body/health, cayne, everyday life, info-contact, lj, menstuation, pcos, queer, ttc

		Blue I'm feeling very blue today. I'm not sure if it's the weather (grey and rainy, alternating with bright, sunny and hot) or hormones (off the pill about two weeks) or something else.Maybe it's the fact that it's almost October, and I want to be drinking hot tea, and pulling out my favorite sweaters and watching the leaves change colors, not drinking sweet tea, being cranky because none of the stores carry shorts down here at this time of year and it's silly to carry wool sweaters when there's not much need unless one is travelling, and thinking that it might finally get to be cool enough to enjoy our back yard. I'm feeling like a bad poly-partner lately, or a bad social worker, or both. I'm not sure which. And I might write a filtered post about that later. It involves relationships, neither of which are/were mine...although the result of one did have quite an impact on my life, it wasn't anything that I did, and that lesson took a long time to realize.Our new kitchen table arrived last weekend. It's not the table I wanted, but it will do. It's nice enough. My in laws are coming at the end of October. I don't complain much about them, because generally we're all fine together, but they're irritating me with this trip. We invited them for our housewarming (which is October 28, in case anyone wants to come) and they said they were coming. Only now they want to come on the 25th and leave on the 28th, so somehow, in the middle of prepping for our first big party, they're going to be here, and while they're content to just sort of hang around and relax, it also means figuring out things like taking them to the airport on the morning of the party, when we really need to be here getting ready for things. I need to start sorting out the menu-if I need to try out any new recipies, I have time to do it. And then there's my Mom. Who just took in five ferral kittens, bringing the current total in the house up to eighteen. I think she'll give at least two of them away, possibly three depending on how much she can socialize one who has been giving her trouble. But that's not what's weighing on my mind. Mom, as much as she wants grandchildren has been pushing me to wait. She's doing it because she's worried about my health, which is fine and reasonable and all that, but, at the same time, I saw the doctor at the beginning of September, I'm not doing anything I'm not supposed to be, and no matter how firmly I say to her, "thank you for your concern, I'll take it under advisement, but the doctor seems to think it's fine" she won't be convinced, and the more firm I am about it, the more I stand up to her, the harder she pushes, and the more she tries to start a disagreement. She has a hard time respecting the boundaries I set about my life, and that's uncomfortable for me. I'll keep setting limits as best I can, and if it results in fighting with my mother, so be it. We'll fight, I'll get upset, and rant about it, I'll cool off for a few days, she'll cool off for a few days, and we'll apologize. It's not the cycle I'd like to be in, but conflict resolution in a calm and rational manner is not the way my mother deals with me, no matter how much I try. It's not what I'd deem unhealthy for me right now, but it's not the way I'd like to conduct things. I think she's gotten better since I got married, though. I've been on the metformin for a couple of weeks now and have been discovering the foods that it makes it hard to eat (white bread and potatoes, so far, though there are others that I've been afraid to try and eat because I'm not sure I want to deal with the insane sleepiness coupled with the yucky low blood sugar feeling that sometimes comes with making mistakes.) I'm not willing to give up entirely white bread or potatoes, but I'll have to be extra careful about when I choose to eat them. Despite some minor food issues, I feel incredible. I feel better than I have in a couple of years. Money of course stresses me out. We're getting new cell phones shortly, which means figuring out what to spend and what I need/want in a phone. Cayne will choose the phone most like his current Nokia brick that he can put his own ringtones on. I'm not sure what I want, whether I want a Treo or something similar, or something simpler. (We'll get the phones from Verizon Wireless, because they have a plan that's reasonable for calling to, and in Canada, so if you want to make phone suggestions for either of us, go for it.) And, we're getting to the point where purchasing a car is becoming iminent. We're hoping to hold out at least til tax time, and see what we can put together for a downpayment then. It's quite complicated to figure out what we can afford, what we want, what makes sense. What we want is something larger than what we drive now in a TBD affordable price range (monthly payment plus insurance) that will fit car seats easily, and is comfortable for both of us to drive. What I'd like is something smaller than the Impala wagons that my Mom drove until I was in college, but that still has station wagon or minivan type cargo space. Maybe Cayne will do the taco dance when he gets home, and cheer me up.Tags: body/health, cats, cayne, celebrations, everyday life, family, lj brain trust, poly Peace of mind?: Blue Burning down the house: "When the Stars go Blue" The Coors w/Bono

		Dolphin needs a prosthetic tail. I think that's way cool, and might check out the donation information. The phone number is in the article. In other news, I came home from today's doctor's appointment with a diagnosis of PCOS and a prescription for Metformin. Which is exactly what I wanted, sort of. It's good to have an answer, and it's been evident for years that PCOS was the probable cause, but there's the process of getting used to taking the medication, and the side effects, and learning how to deal with taking meds four times a day. (I know there are other ways to take it, but for now, this is what the doctor wants me to do.) The upside, however is that the doctor said "Go off the pill. It's not suppressing your cyst much if you've had two ruptures in the last couple of months. You'll probably drop weight faster if you're off the pill, and have better response to the Metformin. If you get pregnant before I see you again in January, that's fine...I'd like it if you would wait til March, but if it happens before then, it's okay. You can use any other contraceptive method you want..condoms, rhythm method. You need to keep good track of your cycles, you may want to use an OPK [ovulation predictor kit] and if you start trying in March, and you don't have success in a few cycles, or you're not ovulating, we'll talk about adding other things like Clomid." So, what this means is that we're going to decide if and when we're ready to try again for a baby. And there's a lot of stuff to deal with there. And it also means I'm likely to create a PCOS filter, so as not to bore most of you who aren't interested in what's going on with my ovaries. It also means that I've been told that I will probably feel very sick for at least a month as I go on the new medication, and ramp the dose up to the level that the doctor wants me at.Tags: body/health, pcos, ttc, weird news

		LASIK anyone? I've tried to avoid driving at night for a long time...I've had night vision issues since childhood...I've been told it has to do with astigmatism, and also with the size of my pupils (which are, according to one doctor, are "very large.") But tonight, driving home in the rain and after dark (at about half past eight) it became apparent to me, how serious the night vision issues are. My Dad had LASIK a few years ago, but he's never had the kind of night vision problems that I have, so he hasn't been able to tell me anything about it. I know there can be issues with halos and night glow, but that's what I deal with all the time at night anyway, and I'm not sure it could get worse. Has anyone reading had LASIK? Wanna share your experience with me?Tags: body/health

		Ouch I have had stabbing pains in both ovaries today, and lots of uterine cramps. My period is beyond the crampy stage, so I think it's something totally unrelated to that. Feh. I'll mention it to the doctor when I'm there soon. And oh wow, I can tell that Cayne was drinking tonight. He's snoring extra loud. So, cool people, thumbs up or thumbs down on Pants of Dance Off? It's a post Full House, post meth, Jodie Swetin. We shopped today. A lot. At Pier One. We bought a table, and chairs, and rugs, and stuff. And it will look nice. Slipcovers are probably the next project. All I want right now is for it to be late enough that I can take strong drugs and go to bed. (Can't take the prescription stuff with alcohol, so I'm waiting a little longer so that I can take serious meds and go to bed. Need lots of energy for grape stomping tomorrow.Tags: body/health, entertainment, everyday life, house, links, pop culture, television




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